“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Perhaps we should be flattered that the last we heard of the bidding saw Bantam making an offer to Prentice of $50,000 for the present Seven, plus the next two.... Jane spoke to John Nelson this evening before the session; he called her from his place, after failing to reach her this afternoon. As far as we know, the set-to is cleared up now, Jane is free, etc. Grace gave John sales figures for Seth Speaks which are much too low, so we really have little idea of how the book is selling, judging by those. Actually, Grace told Jane last week, and John this week, that the book is “a smashing success,” whatever that means, and is in its sixth printing. We aren’t due to collect royalty money this month from Bantam, however, which means the original $35,000 isn’t eaten up yet by sales. Some $12,000 to go.

You work at home. You are reacting, and have been, to some of your mother’s attitudes toward men who work at home, so you try to prove to yourself and others that this is really not only as difficult as outside work, but more so. If people might think you have little to do all day because they do not see you going to a job, then you can show that you have even less time to yourself than others.

Instead you immediately say something like “It would be great to work just so many hours a day and come home and be free.” Or you emphasize how busy you really are, and how little time you really have—so if it seems that you do not have enough time that is hardly surprising: you have given yourselves such suggestions for years.

The symptoms are really minimal. To some extent however they represent the weight of your own beliefs that Ruburt added to his own symptoms. He refuses to bear that weight any longer. There is no doubt that he worries about them. Yet he is determined to be free. Your work with the pendulum, again, is important, for it assures him that you believe enough in a safe universe to encourage his freedom, and your own.