“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I also asked that Seth comment on Jane’s teeth, and on the “bug,” or whatever, that I’d been really bothered by for the last two weeks. Jane hadn’t been at her best either, although she felt much better than I had. I’d finally managed to finish proofreading her manuscript for Psychic Politics, and had it wrapped and ready to mail tomorrow [Monday] morning.)

(To me:)You are stubborn. Your own thoughts wore you out. You needed to let down, and you would not do it. You could not take a vacation, you felt. You worried about time and your painting and “Unknown” Reality, and you would not relax. You worried about other issues that I told you about—taxes and money. You not only worried about the present, but you dwelled upon the “past mistakes.” You remembered doing Ruburt’s Dialogues drawings, and Adventures diagrams, and those thoughts crowded your present. To some extent, it is quite valid to say—though you may not agree with me—that you might as well have had all that work to do now as well.

(A note for the record: I tried to use the pendulum to help me fathom the reasons for my illness—but with very little success. It’s one of the very few times the pendulum didn’t help. Even at the time I felt I wasn’t asking the right questions; sometimes the answers received were contradictory. But mainly, with hindsight I can see that I hadn’t asked the right questions to begin with. It didn’t occur to me that I needed a break.)

I have little to say otherwise, except that your own attitudes have changed for the better, for you took your strengths for granted, for once (re AP’s visit), and did not concentrate upon those areas that you once felt were so shameful. For Ruburt’s condition is not shameful by any means—yet both of you felt that it was.

(As Seth, Jane picked up a copy of Personal Reality from the coffee table. A reader had sent it to us, asking for Seth’s autograph. Seth had never signed a book before—but did so now with a flourish, using a red felt-tip pen.)