“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

If he did, freely now, work as long and often as he wanted to, without worrying about going out, or housework, then naturally the period of intense mental activity would bring about a desire to go out, and be physically active.

Riding the creative energies in that manner, you see, would allow him to recognize his own rhythm, flow and ebb. When his mind was tired it would automatically signal the body to physical activity, walks, changed environment, and so forth. The point of such a suggestion however rests in writing freely. When he is writing and also thinking that he should go for a walk then the conflicts arise more strongly. He knows that he wants to be writing. The conflict itself then prevents the follow-through thrust, so that he does not feel the natural relaxation that would follow, or the natural resulting desire for activity.

Give us a moment.... It is important however to realize that to some extent he feels that long hours of writing are now wrong, because of the physical condition in which he finds himself. Now for a moment, tell him to imagine himself, generally speaking, well. If he wrote, steadily even, and did not go out for two or three days he would not think that there was anything wrong in that—nor would there be. When the stint was over he would feel perhaps a strong burst of physically directed energy, and want to clean the house or go for walks.

Give us a moment.... It would help when he is working, particularly whenever he is unduly bothered, to stop and say “What do I think about what I am doing in this moment? And what do I think I should be doing differently?! Have him write as much as he wants, and not to stew about housework for example, or walking outside. His natural pattern would be to do housework also, in bursts of activity.

For Ruburt, spring and fall are periods when all of his energy rouses at a highly creative level, and insights are particularly valuable at such times. The period before an individual’s birth is enacted again symbolically, but in new ways, each year. The seeking toward birth is a spiritual stimuli that is then re-enacted, but in new creative ways: so that Ruburt in winter, particularly in late winter, is on the one hand working toward new births of energy and creativity; and on the other is aware of the very need for such new birth, that would be implied in a before-birth situation.

According to the ideas of course this can be highly advantageous, unfortunate, or fall any place between. Give us time.... Each personality would definitely translate all of this in its own way. I cannot emphasize that enough. Ruburt, however, equates winter, to some extent, with being unborn, however. Naturally, high winds or snowstorms used to exhilarate him and act as stimuli, but overall his physical being always exhibited its greatest health, flexibility and exuberance in the other seasons. With the physical condition to some extent the tendencies in winter were overemphasized. He does not naturally feel as great a rapport, then, as he does in the other seasons.

He has been telling himself that he must go out in the face of some other tendencies, then, that ordinarily, in a good state of flexibility, would be relatively unnoticed. That is not a particularly important point, but given here simply to give you an idea of other issues that operate, having to do with a personality’s natural leanings toward certain seasonal conditions.

The purposes were there. The methods were left open. You were correct in assuming that Ruburt would not let the situation go beyond a certain point. I said that the methods were left open, and at one time you contemplated for yourself the same kind of situation, but turned aside from it after a taste of what it meant, or could mean.

It was not an easy road, in certain terms. On the other hand it gave Ruburt exactly what he wanted in experience. The two of you jointly also did agree, despite your own feelings in space and time, and I understand them; I know that the method will be left behind. I am well aware however of your attitudes in the time, as you experience it. Ruburt however did choose a condition which could be experienced and then conquered. It was a condition that for example would not involve destruction of organs, or reliance upon the medical profession. This would blur the issues. It did not have to be physical. It could have involved instead any of the numberless problems that people have. Ruburt rejected most of those; and so, in your relationship with Ruburt, did you.

You have been deeply concerned in other lives also with the human condition, and worked in many areas. One of the reasons you chose not to have children was to devote yourselves to that end now. For your particular purposes you also needed to be free of many strong emotional attachments—not because such attachments are not good, but because for you and your purposes they would blur the issues.

Ruburt wanted to have a strong emotional nature in order to relate with other people, and yet also wanted to control and focus that nature so that it would also be directed toward his purpose. The symptoms also served that end. At the same time they allowed him to relate to those who were ill and unhappy in a way that he might not, he felt, have otherwise allowed.

Your part of the purpose of course was to witness Ruburt’s condition, and therefore give you an emotional realization of the nature of the nature of beliefs as they applied not only to the two of you, but to others. Ruburt’s vitality, then, despite the conditions, would also serve to remind you of the indomitable vitality of the race, and your part in trying to set forth ideas and directions that would be of benefit.