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Riding the creative energies in that manner, you see, would allow him to recognize his own rhythm, flow and ebb. When his mind was tired it would automatically signal the body to physical activity, walks, changed environment, and so forth. The point of such a suggestion however rests in writing freely. When he is writing and also thinking that he should go for a walk then the conflicts arise more strongly. He knows that he wants to be writing. The conflict itself then prevents the follow-through thrust, so that he does not feel the natural relaxation that would follow, or the natural resulting desire for activity.

Give us a moment.... It is important however to realize that to some extent he feels that long hours of writing are now wrong, because of the physical condition in which he finds himself. Now for a moment, tell him to imagine himself, generally speaking, well. If he wrote, steadily even, and did not go out for two or three days he would not think that there was anything wrong in that—nor would there be. When the stint was over he would feel perhaps a strong burst of physically directed energy, and want to clean the house or go for walks.

Apropos of your joint discussion on Monday: it was advantageous. One point Ruburt missed, however. He knows when he spontaneously wants to go out, or to a joint, or whatever. When he tells himself that he must go out every day, then that feeling goes directly counter to his feelings that he may know quite well he wants to write and not go out. The symptoms then are intensified because of the conflict.

There were many other methods. Ruburt felt that because he was younger than you he could more safely afford the particular method he chose. The solution lies of course in the method, in that it was meant as a method to an end, and not as an end in itself.

If this is understood clearly as a method, then Ruburt will realize that he is quite at liberty to change a method, particularly when he has run it into the ground. Nor should he berate himself, for a method is a learning process, and from it he has indeed learned much. He knew well, however, that the method was taken only for a time. The fears about the future are natural triggers within the method itself, that automatically prevent it from going too far, and that signal the end of the method itself.

It was not an easy road, in certain terms. On the other hand it gave Ruburt exactly what he wanted in experience. The two of you jointly also did agree, despite your own feelings in space and time, and I understand them; I know that the method will be left behind. I am well aware however of your attitudes in the time, as you experience it. Ruburt however did choose a condition which could be experienced and then conquered. It was a condition that for example would not involve destruction of organs, or reliance upon the medical profession. This would blur the issues. It did not have to be physical. It could have involved instead any of the numberless problems that people have. Ruburt rejected most of those; and so, in your relationship with Ruburt, did you.

You have been deeply concerned in other lives also with the human condition, and worked in many areas. One of the reasons you chose not to have children was to devote yourselves to that end now. For your particular purposes you also needed to be free of many strong emotional attachments—not because such attachments are not good, but because for you and your purposes they would blur the issues.

The whole point however was to transcend the method itself, but the method could not be pretended. When this is clearly understood then you and he will see that the method is only half experienced, for the method itself includes triumph over the conditions. If this is not understood then the method seems purposeless to a large degree.

The method also, in an odd way, allows others to relate to Ruburt. When, as he will, he recovers his flexibility, then he is talking as someone who has overcome, and had something to overcome. It is easy to say that he has maligned his body, but the entire personality is body and mind and all, and the body itself has learned some comprehensions and joys also, having to do with sense appreciation, that some people never physically, now, experience. The other half of the method therefore lies in dropping it, and this was built in from the beginning.

Again, the choice was of a condition that could be overcome and that did not involve the medical profession. He chose ahead of time something, in other words, with which he knew he could cope and successfully. Someone working for their own purposes at an entirely different level might choose a physical condition that necessitated the medical profession, and might result in an important medical discovery.

Your part of the purpose of course was to witness Ruburt’s condition, and therefore give you an emotional realization of the nature of the nature of beliefs as they applied not only to the two of you, but to others. Ruburt’s vitality, then, despite the conditions, would also serve to remind you of the indomitable vitality of the race, and your part in trying to set forth ideas and directions that would be of benefit.