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Give us a moment.... It might be helpful to clear some issues that have not been discussed in this manner particularly. Ruburt wants to write the bulk of the day, yet he now believes it is unhealthy to do that.... Give us a moment with this.... He believes he should be working, yet also that he should be more physically active. The symptoms then become intensified at times. As you have told him, there is nothing wrong with working all day, and all night, as long as he is physically free, and is not working under enforced conditions.

Apropos of your joint discussion on Monday: it was advantageous. One point Ruburt missed, however. He knows when he spontaneously wants to go out, or to a joint, or whatever. When he tells himself that he must go out every day, then that feeling goes directly counter to his feelings that he may know quite well he wants to write and not go out. The symptoms then are intensified because of the conflict.

Ruburt wanted to have a strong emotional nature in order to relate with other people, and yet also wanted to control and focus that nature so that it would also be directed toward his purpose. The symptoms also served that end. At the same time they allowed him to relate to those who were ill and unhappy in a way that he might not, he felt, have otherwise allowed.