“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(My discussion upset Jane, of course, as she made ready for tonight’s session, and I was left feeling angry and taken advantage of. I also felt that Jane was largely unconcerned by the foreign rights questions, and to me this was rather inconceivable, if such a word can be so qualified.

(10:00.) For one thing, you do not respect position, and your attitudes are clear, through your notes and Ruburt’s introductions. You do not play up whatever “important” contacts you have made. Ruburt could easily have given impressions concerning, say, Richard Burton, to Goodheart (Bill), who would have been initially impressed, and would have spread the word. Ruburt disdains such maneuvers.

Your mother’s verbal expressions were often aggressive tools used against your father—that is, when your mother expressed love to you verbally, the words were so chosen that they became verbal assaults against your father.

Intellectually he accepts it, but emotionally he yearns for that direct expression. The child may think “My teeth are fine, why yell at me to brush them?” Ruburt thinks “What is there that allows you to speak your concern more actively than your love?” He is verbally oriented. Words have rhythm—emotional rhythms, to which he is acutely attuned. You are saying “I love you. My art is, for whatever reasons, private. I respect it. It involves a method of expression, and a primary stance of my life, regardless of what it brings or does not bring. I am sorry that somehow I cannot use it in the way that you use your writing, and even in the way that I can use mine. When I think that others take advantage of you in monetary terms—government, publisher, or public—it makes me wonder why. I wish that my painting could bring you abundance in social ways also. I feel guilty sometimes when I paint for that reason. I know that you understand on deep levels. I wish I could express my love verbally, but if not, I will express it is this fashion.”