“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(10:24.) Your home is the result of your joint successes, and intuitive successes. There was work involved in the typing of manuscripts, hours spent, but the success itself was the result of your individual and joint intuitive creativity, curiosity, your sense of challenge and more adventure.

There were certain beliefs of yours together, again, that once served a purpose. They kept you from “falling for” certain temptations in society. These worked well for some time. When you found yourselves able to buy a house, however, both of you experienced some conflict because of those beliefs, held over too long.

Your lives, like everyone’s, have rhythms. Ruburt’s creative life follows rhythms in which he produces excellent works usually in great bursts of activity—then a quiet period. You work in more measured patterns, and this is largely responsible for your individual and joint feelings over “Unknown” Reality.

This has caused some conflict between you. Measured work of that nature is very difficult for Ruburt—hence the typing, for example of manuscripts, such as mine, that he cannot change as he goes along, is very difficult. When he types his own work he makes creative changes.

There is a level of understanding that you achieve now and then, and lose when you achieve it; you work wonders—and those wonders appear so ordinary to you, so natural, that they almost escape your notice. It is almost impossible for you to understand the evolution of your thoughts and understanding throughout the years, or your impact upon others—I am speaking jointly.

When you tie these abilities to feelings of strong responsibility, serious work, too much, you limit them to whatever degree, and you limit your own expression of them. Ruburt’s held-over feelings about femininity make him try to be overly respectable in his work. The playful abilities find themselves in straightjackets. He becomes afraid of being ostracized. Your own seriousness about work in the past, your own attitudes, linger on in his. He took you too literally.

If during that time nothing in particular comes, then let him sketch, for the sketching reinforces playful creativity. He can then type an hour on a manuscript. I want him to concentrate upon his ideas, theories rather than think in terms of work.

There are “evolutions” in our work and in your own work that are in the offing, and a new book for Ruburt if he remembers the playful attitude.