“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

To some extent or another you chose abilities ahead of time that would at least partially meet conflict with the society in which you were born. Your abilities as an artist, for example, were not those relished by mothers in their male offspring. They were not considered beneficial in themselves—but only if they could be practically used as a way of making a living. The creativity implied was beside the point.

You react by setting up defenses. Because of Ruburt’s old ideas about femininity, kept beyond their time, he feels more vulnerable than you amid those unsafe conditions, and has put up extra safeguards. Life was not meant to be perfect. You can, however, choose to accept your challenges wholeheartedly, resolutely—something that you have not really done. I do not think you believe what I tell you, and you do not believe me because you do not really believe that the point of power is in the present.

(10:24.) Your home is the result of your joint successes, and intuitive successes. There was work involved in the typing of manuscripts, hours spent, but the success itself was the result of your individual and joint intuitive creativity, curiosity, your sense of challenge and more adventure.

You could have stayed in apartments all your life, denying yourself the privacy that you now enjoy, and thus avoided any conflict. You chose to grow, to experiment, and to face whatever issues were involved. For you, the artist was not connected with any ideas of homemaking, though outside of that context you wanted to own your own piece of land, however small. Around you, you found, were men who had traveled other roads—your neighbors, and you felt yourselves to be aliens. You put yourselves in the middle, simply speaking, of the conventional world that earlier it seemed you had sworn to combat or ignore. This was quite necessary, for you were in danger of thinking of conventional people as symbols only—not as individuals with their own problems and concerns.

For Ruburt, again, the old ideas of femininity, not examined, hung over, and so he felt more vulnerable than you. You must realize that you chose this reality, and unconventional challenges. You must realize that in so doing you automatically and knowingly took into consideration such adventures as the young man coming through the window (earlier today, while I was taking a nap).

In those areas you believed that the point of power was in the present. Ruburt’s physical condition is so noticeable and so has your joint attention, because it stands out alone as the one large negative in a period of positive growing achievement, abundance, and understanding.

Now people do the same thing in all areas of their lives. The beliefs involved in your case were particularly “tricky,” because they were initially part of your private and joint experience, meant to be helpful. Ruburt did distrust the body because it was female—a belief quite helpful, if distorted, when he was 15 or 16 years old, or even in his 20’s.

2.) Three times a week, hot towels should be applied to the knees, and this will help his legs—but also clear up his head. I am not going into the physical reasons here, but this will be most beneficial. There is nothing wrong with his eyes. There has been tension on the muscles. Physically, the hot towels on the knees will benefit that condition. Otherwise, it was because he did not want to type up my book. Creatively, now, he is always interested in the new book—the current creative act, and he resented feeling that he had to type Psyche while not having current sessions. The eye condition resulted.

(11:32 PM. Seth’s reference to Willy II came about because that creature had insisted upon crawling over me while I was taking notes, and laying in my lap in various uncomfortable positions.)