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He protected himself against early marriage or child bearing by identifying the male writer to some extent with his own writing image. This provided needed leeway in the formation of his ideas, and allowed him to leap free of the stereotyped beliefs about femininity that otherwise could have hampered him. The novelist, the science fiction writer—these were male images needed in the time of his youth.

He developed the idea of being an outsider, as you did, setting up certain barriers against the world. This gave necessary periods of solitude, and helped at one time to channel his abilities. The same applies to you.

You react by setting up defenses. Because of Ruburt’s old ideas about femininity, kept beyond their time, he feels more vulnerable than you amid those unsafe conditions, and has put up extra safeguards. Life was not meant to be perfect. You can, however, choose to accept your challenges wholeheartedly, resolutely—something that you have not really done. I do not think you believe what I tell you, and you do not believe me because you do not really believe that the point of power is in the present.

You could have stayed in apartments all your life, denying yourself the privacy that you now enjoy, and thus avoided any conflict. You chose to grow, to experiment, and to face whatever issues were involved. For you, the artist was not connected with any ideas of homemaking, though outside of that context you wanted to own your own piece of land, however small. Around you, you found, were men who had traveled other roads—your neighbors, and you felt yourselves to be aliens. You put yourselves in the middle, simply speaking, of the conventional world that earlier it seemed you had sworn to combat or ignore. This was quite necessary, for you were in danger of thinking of conventional people as symbols only—not as individuals with their own problems and concerns.

For Ruburt, again, the old ideas of femininity, not examined, hung over, and so he felt more vulnerable than you. You must realize that you chose this reality, and unconventional challenges. You must realize that in so doing you automatically and knowingly took into consideration such adventures as the young man coming through the window (earlier today, while I was taking a nap).

The idea of a workroom, so-called—and I prefer studio—is a good one; excellent. You found yourselves surrounded, however, by men whose life-style is completely alien to your own. This added conflict for both of you.

If during that time nothing in particular comes, then let him sketch, for the sketching reinforces playful creativity. He can then type an hour on a manuscript. I want him to concentrate upon his ideas, theories rather than think in terms of work.