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He protected himself against early marriage or child bearing by identifying the male writer to some extent with his own writing image. This provided needed leeway in the formation of his ideas, and allowed him to leap free of the stereotyped beliefs about femininity that otherwise could have hampered him. The novelist, the science fiction writer—these were male images needed in the time of his youth.

He developed the idea of being an outsider, as you did, setting up certain barriers against the world. This gave necessary periods of solitude, and helped at one time to channel his abilities. The same applies to you.

You react by setting up defenses. Because of Ruburt’s old ideas about femininity, kept beyond their time, he feels more vulnerable than you amid those unsafe conditions, and has put up extra safeguards. Life was not meant to be perfect. You can, however, choose to accept your challenges wholeheartedly, resolutely—something that you have not really done. I do not think you believe what I tell you, and you do not believe me because you do not really believe that the point of power is in the present.

For Ruburt, again, the old ideas of femininity, not examined, hung over, and so he felt more vulnerable than you. You must realize that you chose this reality, and unconventional challenges. You must realize that in so doing you automatically and knowingly took into consideration such adventures as the young man coming through the window (earlier today, while I was taking a nap).

Your lives, like everyone’s, have rhythms. Ruburt’s creative life follows rhythms in which he produces excellent works usually in great bursts of activity—then a quiet period. You work in more measured patterns, and this is largely responsible for your individual and joint feelings over “Unknown” Reality.

This has caused some conflict between you. Measured work of that nature is very difficult for Ruburt—hence the typing, for example of manuscripts, such as mine, that he cannot change as he goes along, is very difficult. When he types his own work he makes creative changes.

Now people do the same thing in all areas of their lives. The beliefs involved in your case were particularly “tricky,” because they were initially part of your private and joint experience, meant to be helpful. Ruburt did distrust the body because it was female—a belief quite helpful, if distorted, when he was 15 or 16 years old, or even in his 20’s.

He kept it to protect himself and to protect you, artistically and economically, so that for example you would not have a child to support or to turn you from your lone purpose. The intuitions are regarded in your society as female—and as a writer he felt he had to guard against female impulses or characteristics —against being too frivolous or emotional.

When you tie these abilities to feelings of strong responsibility, serious work, too much, you limit them to whatever degree, and you limit your own expression of them. Ruburt’s held-over feelings about femininity make him try to be overly respectable in his work. The playful abilities find themselves in straightjackets. He becomes afraid of being ostracized. Your own seriousness about work in the past, your own attitudes, linger on in his. He took you too literally.

1.) I want you to each reread the passages on the point of power in Personal Reality, and to apply it—that truth—to Ruburt’s physical condition. There is nothing in Ruburt’s body that cannot be vastly improved and corrected. He needs to regain confidence in his physical being again.

2.) Three times a week, hot towels should be applied to the knees, and this will help his legs—but also clear up his head. I am not going into the physical reasons here, but this will be most beneficial. There is nothing wrong with his eyes. There has been tension on the muscles. Physically, the hot towels on the knees will benefit that condition. Otherwise, it was because he did not want to type up my book. Creatively, now, he is always interested in the new book—the current creative act, and he resented feeling that he had to type Psyche while not having current sessions. The eye condition resulted.

4.) For three hours I want him to write whatever he wants, freeing his mind from thoughts of his symptoms, and from responsibility.

If during that time nothing in particular comes, then let him sketch, for the sketching reinforces playful creativity. He can then type an hour on a manuscript. I want him to concentrate upon his ideas, theories rather than think in terms of work.

One of his greatest talents is to delve inward, but if this is carried to the extreme, he can brood and feel overly lonely. There is no condition that cannot be changed. He can use your loving, playful encouragement. That last is very important.

There are “evolutions” in our work and in your own work that are in the offing, and a new book for Ruburt if he remembers the playful attitude.