“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You could have stayed in apartments all your life, denying yourself the privacy that you now enjoy, and thus avoided any conflict. You chose to grow, to experiment, and to face whatever issues were involved. For you, the artist was not connected with any ideas of homemaking, though outside of that context you wanted to own your own piece of land, however small. Around you, you found, were men who had traveled other roads—your neighbors, and you felt yourselves to be aliens. You put yourselves in the middle, simply speaking, of the conventional world that earlier it seemed you had sworn to combat or ignore. This was quite necessary, for you were in danger of thinking of conventional people as symbols only—not as individuals with their own problems and concerns.

For Ruburt, again, the old ideas of femininity, not examined, hung over, and so he felt more vulnerable than you. You must realize that you chose this reality, and unconventional challenges. You must realize that in so doing you automatically and knowingly took into consideration such adventures as the young man coming through the window (earlier today, while I was taking a nap).

He kept it to protect himself and to protect you, artistically and economically, so that for example you would not have a child to support or to turn you from your lone purpose. The intuitions are regarded in your society as female—and as a writer he felt he had to guard against female impulses or characteristics —against being too frivolous or emotional.

(I thought I had lots of them, but felt quite tired. “No, I’d rather study this first and then come up with questions.”)