“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

To some extent or another you chose abilities ahead of time that would at least partially meet conflict with the society in which you were born. Your abilities as an artist, for example, were not those relished by mothers in their male offspring. They were not considered beneficial in themselves—but only if they could be practically used as a way of making a living. The creativity implied was beside the point.

The same applied to Ruburt. You chose challenges, then, because despite it all your personalities are the kind that set up such life situations to begin with. Your abilities would meet some conflict in terms of religious, sexual, and social beliefs. This conflict would in a certain fashion sharpen the issues. To meet with these, Ruburt for example adopted certain beliefs that at various times would be helpful.

There were certain beliefs of yours together, again, that once served a purpose. They kept you from “falling for” certain temptations in society. These worked well for some time. When you found yourselves able to buy a house, however, both of you experienced some conflict because of those beliefs, held over too long.

You could have stayed in apartments all your life, denying yourself the privacy that you now enjoy, and thus avoided any conflict. You chose to grow, to experiment, and to face whatever issues were involved. For you, the artist was not connected with any ideas of homemaking, though outside of that context you wanted to own your own piece of land, however small. Around you, you found, were men who had traveled other roads—your neighbors, and you felt yourselves to be aliens. You put yourselves in the middle, simply speaking, of the conventional world that earlier it seemed you had sworn to combat or ignore. This was quite necessary, for you were in danger of thinking of conventional people as symbols only—not as individuals with their own problems and concerns.

This has caused some conflict between you. Measured work of that nature is very difficult for Ruburt—hence the typing, for example of manuscripts, such as mine, that he cannot change as he goes along, is very difficult. When he types his own work he makes creative changes.

The idea of a workroom, so-called—and I prefer studio—is a good one; excellent. You found yourselves surrounded, however, by men whose life-style is completely alien to your own. This added conflict for both of you.