“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(It also seems that I’ll never be finished with “Unknown” Reality. During our talk last night, I told Jane that we’d made a serious error in deciding to publish it in two volumes, with extensive notes—that there were obviously other courses of action we could have taken. I know that she is very upset by the time element involved here, and now I’m not at all sure that I know what I’m doing on the project any more. I do know it’ll be done some day—and never again.... Jane has been spending most of her time lately using the pendulum, making notes, reading old sessions on herself and myself, etc, but presently I see all this activity as repeating old rhythms. We’ve talked about it a lot lately, but...? I think she came up with some new insights lately, yet she found hints of even those later, in old sessions; we’d just forgotten them.)

The same applied to Ruburt. You chose challenges, then, because despite it all your personalities are the kind that set up such life situations to begin with. Your abilities would meet some conflict in terms of religious, sexual, and social beliefs. This conflict would in a certain fashion sharpen the issues. To meet with these, Ruburt for example adopted certain beliefs that at various times would be helpful.

You could have stayed in apartments all your life, denying yourself the privacy that you now enjoy, and thus avoided any conflict. You chose to grow, to experiment, and to face whatever issues were involved. For you, the artist was not connected with any ideas of homemaking, though outside of that context you wanted to own your own piece of land, however small. Around you, you found, were men who had traveled other roads—your neighbors, and you felt yourselves to be aliens. You put yourselves in the middle, simply speaking, of the conventional world that earlier it seemed you had sworn to combat or ignore. This was quite necessary, for you were in danger of thinking of conventional people as symbols only—not as individuals with their own problems and concerns.

Now people do the same thing in all areas of their lives. The beliefs involved in your case were particularly “tricky,” because they were initially part of your private and joint experience, meant to be helpful. Ruburt did distrust the body because it was female—a belief quite helpful, if distorted, when he was 15 or 16 years old, or even in his 20’s.

(11:01.) Now: if you believe me you can end all of this, and Ruburt can regain his normal flexibility. On several occasions in the past we had such sessions. You each managed for a time to achieve that level of intuitive understanding necessary. You followed my directions, and you saw results. I believe, now, if you saw the same results you would each have better sense than to let them go by the board.

Ruburt’s body, incidentally, has held out remarkably well through all of this. I suggest two sessions a week—one on thematic material, the book, or questions you might have in areas of your interest. The other a private session if necessary or desirable—or otherwise to deal with the subjects above.

If you can only manage to realize that the point of power is in the present, in all areas, then Ruburt’s condition can dramatically improve in a short time. You are afraid of looking for improvements. You do not trust them. You think that because there have been failures in the past, failures are inevitable. Ruburt must reinstate a playful attitude mentally and psychically.