“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You want other people to think you are working as hard as they are, or harder. You do not want them to think that your money came easily, which in a way it did. At the same time you say how good it would be to just take a job and come home when it was finished—a self-deception. You know better.

When you both had to work outside at least partially for a living, you did not have to consider your beliefs about creative time, or how to organize your day creatively. You were too busy trying to get rid of your jobs. Once that goal was reached, your beliefs about time and creativity became pertinent, as did the issues concerned with spontaneity and discipline.

When you had a job the issue was clear for each of you: in your free time you felt you had a perfect right to paint or write, do relaxation exercises or psychological time. Later, when you did not need jobs and the books began to sell, then your creative time also became productive-money time to some extent.

Ruburt felt intensely alone in that regard. Hearing so many stories about out-of-body encounters, for example, he became frightened. You simply told him that was beneath his abilities, without understanding the sense of loneliness, or the fear generated by conventionalized beliefs, which before his own experiences he did not encounter. The relaxation and psy-time will help there, however.

(11:40 PM. Jane’s delivery was often more forceful and emphatic than I’ve indicated here. The session is excellent. Since it’s late the next evening as I finish typing this, I can write that we’ve already begun putting to use some of the suggestions recommended by Seth.)