“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Psychological events have their own integrity, wholeness, but as the dimensions of an object can be more or less ascertained and agreed upon by many, the greater free flow granted to psychological events allows for no such easy conventional recognition. An object such as a piece of furniture comes to you manufactured in a particular fashion. Psychological events are automatically manufactured by each individual, and no one but the individual can really ascertain the quality of the product.

Now in your cases you are quite aware of the difference. There are certain considerations, quite pertinent, that occur in your physical times, so that while on the one hand you were involved in the highest adventures of creativity, pursuing the most profound questions of consciousness, you were also deeply involved in practical considerations of making a living.

Ruburt wanted to make creativity work financially so that you could both be free to pursue it. Through the years the goals of one level of consciousness— though I am putting this simply—became tied to the goals of another level of consciousness. Overall, ideally speaking, the two could be fused. Practically, however, this is like trying to build two pieces of furniture with different materials, then forming them into one cohesive whole. In both of your lives, those experiences, however valid, that did not fit both categories, gradually went to one degree or another by the way.

When you try to use the insights of one level of consciousness to reach the goals of a “lower level of consciousness,” you run into difficulty. I will try to make this as clear as possible.

I am not, as you should know, saying that the goal of financial success is a low one. Unfortunately, however, the beliefs connected with that goal usually involve whole webworks of beliefs that would automatically prevent high creativity.

You are trying to live your lives, speaking simply now, at two mutually exclusive levels, combining two lines of belief that contradict each other. As a result any one action you take does not satisfy you, for you are equally drawn to the other direction. Events then are not clearcut or satisfying. You cannot thoroughly relax or thoroughly go ahead. You cannot thoroughly enjoy your solitude, or thoroughly appreciate your friends and normal social activities. You see in Ruburt’s physical condition the clearest representation, but this is simply the clearest sign of events that exist in your own private experience also. You go out into the world to do the chores, grudgingly, but you go. Ruburt goes ahead creatively, lately, grudgingly, but he goes.

In all of this your accomplishments seem like nothing to either of you. On the one hand you “believe” that you form your own reality, and on the other you believe that things will most likely go wrong unless you do something to stop them; and this is the most conventional world view that forms the experience of, say, the newspaper world.

You are faced of course with conditions built up of long-held attitudes. In general, however, you are tying the highest faculties of your consciousness to goals that are at least unbecoming to them, and because you have still accepted the tenets of conventionalized beliefs. You cannot serve two masters at any one time with hopes of doing justice to either, and you only confuse yourselves. It is the mixture of consciousness with which you form your events that causes the difficulty.

In one area, that of money, Ruburt is fairly free, finally. You consider taxes as a symbol of the creator’s support of the mass world—that is, you feel forced to contribute to a world with which you do not agree. You feel that that world threatens you, and yet you must support it. But the threat—and you must try to understand me—the threat does not exist in that world, but only in your beliefs toward it. You are in that world of threat only according to the degree of power you allow it to have over you.

You can learn to dismiss it—not as a reality to which others may not give acquiescence, but one that you realize is basically powerless. You can no longer afford to serve two masters.

(Loud and amused:) Your ideas about houses, for example, did not bear fruit until you had one. You did not either, incidentally have to confront your negative beliefs about taxes until you were lucky enough, and creative enough, to find yourself in a position where you need pay a considerable amount. You could have chosen to remain poor, and hence avoid the difficulty.

Each day should include, separately, a half hour alone that includes relaxation techniques and psy-time. This should be followed to begin with for each of you, by 10 minutes of yoga exercises. Ruburt should do the most simple ones. Then you should instantly get up. You are to take a 10-minute walk daily. That is a spiritual exercise as well as physical activity. Ruburt should, as I suggested some time ago, have a private phone. Class at least once a month, later twice a month, never more for now.

Television at your dinner hour is advantageous, as long as it is not news. Occasionally you are helped by relaxing in such a manner for several hours. Often, however, this is dead time because your worries have so tired you. Several evenings a week, therefore, I suggest that the two of you pursue a period of psychic activity, as per Ruburt’s library, though with whatever variations suggest themselves. You need not be overly earnest at such times, however. I am not concerned about our book, the latest one. I am intent, however, about a new beginning, a new dedication, so that your own purposes become clearer, and your abilities better used. Conventional ideas of the psychic world have eroded both of your attitudes. In many cases, as with Kubler-Ross, it is again an issue of high insight occurring but put at the service of conventionalized beliefs.