“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now in your cases you are quite aware of the difference. There are certain considerations, quite pertinent, that occur in your physical times, so that while on the one hand you were involved in the highest adventures of creativity, pursuing the most profound questions of consciousness, you were also deeply involved in practical considerations of making a living.

This is simply the result of misunderstanding, confusion, and trying to use a “higher” level of consciousness for goals and beliefs still held at a “lower” level, in quotes now.

You are trying to live your lives, speaking simply now, at two mutually exclusive levels, combining two lines of belief that contradict each other. As a result any one action you take does not satisfy you, for you are equally drawn to the other direction. Events then are not clearcut or satisfying. You cannot thoroughly relax or thoroughly go ahead. You cannot thoroughly enjoy your solitude, or thoroughly appreciate your friends and normal social activities. You see in Ruburt’s physical condition the clearest representation, but this is simply the clearest sign of events that exist in your own private experience also. You go out into the world to do the chores, grudgingly, but you go. Ruburt goes ahead creatively, lately, grudgingly, but he goes.

(Much louder:) Now these are words of the profoundest wisdom, from the fountains of your own psyches, as well as from my own knowledge—and against those words you should judge your own actions, so that you do not react to threatening situations, whose validity exists only at a level of consciousness which you must learn to dismiss.

You keep trying to justify yourselves in the normal world, with the people that you meet. You work long hours, you both overinsist, so people will not think you lazy—or, worse, imagine that you are having fun or enjoying your situation. You are not having much fun right now, and partially for that reason. You are often working longer hours for the same reason, and enjoying it less, as the saying goes.

(10:28.) Ruburt over-worries, now, with any new creative project: will it find readers? Is it important? Will it sell? And you smile. You worry about what the publisher will do with the book after it sells—what will happen to it, and imagine the ways in which it can be ruined. Two sides of the same coin.

Now, in your terms you are graced to have a half acre of land upon the earth, and the hillside, with trees that change, and a house that is secure. To some small extent that environment is a part of the entire earthly structure, and its roots go deeply into the past and the future. It should be a spiritual and a creative joy to tend that land, to feel your feet upon it, and to share the seasons with the consciousness that pervades it.

Each day should include, separately, a half hour alone that includes relaxation techniques and psy-time. This should be followed to begin with for each of you, by 10 minutes of yoga exercises. Ruburt should do the most simple ones. Then you should instantly get up. You are to take a 10-minute walk daily. That is a spiritual exercise as well as physical activity. Ruburt should, as I suggested some time ago, have a private phone. Class at least once a month, later twice a month, never more for now.