“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The events of your lives are in part caused by the psychological results of that level of consciousness, but only in part. Your own lives show well the stamp of still other classifications of consciousness. Events are formed then by various levels of consciousness intersecting. The mixture of those levels of consciousness, and their points of intersection, are up to you.

Now in your cases you are quite aware of the difference. There are certain considerations, quite pertinent, that occur in your physical times, so that while on the one hand you were involved in the highest adventures of creativity, pursuing the most profound questions of consciousness, you were also deeply involved in practical considerations of making a living.

Ruburt wanted to make creativity work financially so that you could both be free to pursue it. Through the years the goals of one level of consciousness— though I am putting this simply—became tied to the goals of another level of consciousness. Overall, ideally speaking, the two could be fused. Practically, however, this is like trying to build two pieces of furniture with different materials, then forming them into one cohesive whole. In both of your lives, those experiences, however valid, that did not fit both categories, gradually went to one degree or another by the way.

You are trying to live your lives, speaking simply now, at two mutually exclusive levels, combining two lines of belief that contradict each other. As a result any one action you take does not satisfy you, for you are equally drawn to the other direction. Events then are not clearcut or satisfying. You cannot thoroughly relax or thoroughly go ahead. You cannot thoroughly enjoy your solitude, or thoroughly appreciate your friends and normal social activities. You see in Ruburt’s physical condition the clearest representation, but this is simply the clearest sign of events that exist in your own private experience also. You go out into the world to do the chores, grudgingly, but you go. Ruburt goes ahead creatively, lately, grudgingly, but he goes.

Those worries on each of your parts tie down your highest aspirations to goals that are unbecoming to them, and impede the very creativity you hope to foster. Because you feel that the world is a threat you rouse to battle against it. Time becomes a battleground. I realize of course that you live in time, but I also know that the quality of creative work is not bound to time, but defies it. Your own feelings about publishers, for example, impedes the creative processes so that you must then labor over notes that would otherwise come clearly and quickly.

You have been straddling levels of consciousness, in other words, so that the events of your lives have shown gaps that we want to close. Please understand that these gaps are also the results, partially, of certain achievements—as your conflicts about taxes could not have existed years ago. That is simply a small example. When you began to expand your ideas of reality, you naturally attached them to goals that you held earlier, and tried to make them fit. Some of those goals were quite worthy, but carried beliefs along with them that were detrimental.

When you both had to work outside at least partially for a living, you did not have to consider your beliefs about creative time, or how to organize your day creatively. You were too busy trying to get rid of your jobs. Once that goal was reached, your beliefs about time and creativity became pertinent, as did the issues concerned with spontaneity and discipline.

Then we will see some results. I will comment at our next session, then. I want the two of you to discuss this session, and begin each day with a sense of dedication. I want you to encourage each other’s strengths honestly, and not reinforce your weaknesses. You cannot change your lives by complaining, or by saying “Yes, I have certain beliefs,” and accepting them. You cannot preserve the status quo, and be creative.

That is the end of our session. I expect—since you agree to my recommendations—that they will be followed. Do not be discouraged if psy-time does not bring instant results—though it well may. These recommendations can change your lives, and set you in those directions proper for you.