“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You see about you various kinds of physical objects. There are different classifications, yet all can be called physical. You are yourself physical, though obviously portions of your body are microscopically small. Your psychological life is composed of many different levels of consciousness of varying classifications. You might say that perceivable events are composed of a conglomeration of certain levels of consciousness tuned in to form an event, say, instead of an object.

You can return a badly wrought piece of furniture and get your money back—but what do you do when you understand that you form your own reality, and also decide that you aren’t pleased with large segments, at least, of the product?

Furniture is manufactured according to certain rules. Events are formed automatically. They are formed, however, in response to your own conscious intents, and of those materials that you supply to the inner wonderworks.

It is for a while perhaps more difficult once you understand that you do form your own psychological reality, for you feel responsible for events that earlier gave you concern, perhaps, but no feeling of inadequacy. When you believe that the world is indeed chaos, then you are thankful for any portions of order or creativity you find within yourself.

It is at first appalling to discover that the negative as well as the positive events are formed at automatic levels, but in response to your expectations and beliefs. World events such as those you read about in your newspaper are the result of conventional ideas and beliefs—those with which you were reared. They will always form part of the fabric of your existence in this life. There are no reasons, however, why they should predominate. They represent a species of consciousness, a classification.

The events of your lives are in part caused by the psychological results of that level of consciousness, but only in part. Your own lives show well the stamp of still other classifications of consciousness. Events are formed then by various levels of consciousness intersecting. The mixture of those levels of consciousness, and their points of intersection, are up to you.

Ruburt wanted to make creativity work financially so that you could both be free to pursue it. Through the years the goals of one level of consciousness— though I am putting this simply—became tied to the goals of another level of consciousness. Overall, ideally speaking, the two could be fused. Practically, however, this is like trying to build two pieces of furniture with different materials, then forming them into one cohesive whole. In both of your lives, those experiences, however valid, that did not fit both categories, gradually went to one degree or another by the way.

In all of this your accomplishments seem like nothing to either of you. On the one hand you “believe” that you form your own reality, and on the other you believe that things will most likely go wrong unless you do something to stop them; and this is the most conventional world view that forms the experience of, say, the newspaper world.

You are faced of course with conditions built up of long-held attitudes. In general, however, you are tying the highest faculties of your consciousness to goals that are at least unbecoming to them, and because you have still accepted the tenets of conventionalized beliefs. You cannot serve two masters at any one time with hopes of doing justice to either, and you only confuse yourselves. It is the mixture of consciousness with which you form your events that causes the difficulty.