“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You see about you various kinds of physical objects. There are different classifications, yet all can be called physical. You are yourself physical, though obviously portions of your body are microscopically small. Your psychological life is composed of many different levels of consciousness of varying classifications. You might say that perceivable events are composed of a conglomeration of certain levels of consciousness tuned in to form an event, say, instead of an object.

Psychological events have their own integrity, wholeness, but as the dimensions of an object can be more or less ascertained and agreed upon by many, the greater free flow granted to psychological events allows for no such easy conventional recognition. An object such as a piece of furniture comes to you manufactured in a particular fashion. Psychological events are automatically manufactured by each individual, and no one but the individual can really ascertain the quality of the product.

Furniture is manufactured according to certain rules. Events are formed automatically. They are formed, however, in response to your own conscious intents, and of those materials that you supply to the inner wonderworks.

It is for a while perhaps more difficult once you understand that you do form your own psychological reality, for you feel responsible for events that earlier gave you concern, perhaps, but no feeling of inadequacy. When you believe that the world is indeed chaos, then you are thankful for any portions of order or creativity you find within yourself.

You take negative, sorrowful, or even disastrous events more or less for granted, and pride yourself on your creativity in spite of such odds.

It is at first appalling to discover that the negative as well as the positive events are formed at automatic levels, but in response to your expectations and beliefs. World events such as those you read about in your newspaper are the result of conventional ideas and beliefs—those with which you were reared. They will always form part of the fabric of your existence in this life. There are no reasons, however, why they should predominate. They represent a species of consciousness, a classification.

The events of your lives are in part caused by the psychological results of that level of consciousness, but only in part. Your own lives show well the stamp of still other classifications of consciousness. Events are formed then by various levels of consciousness intersecting. The mixture of those levels of consciousness, and their points of intersection, are up to you.

(9:35.) The general world level of consciousness can serve as a springboard, so that you use it as a base only while the intimate webwork of your own psychological reality uses finer creative levels of consciousness. The quality of such events can be vastly superior, in your terms, yet you discover yourselves not pleased with the overall daily fabric of your days.

You are trying to live your lives, speaking simply now, at two mutually exclusive levels, combining two lines of belief that contradict each other. As a result any one action you take does not satisfy you, for you are equally drawn to the other direction. Events then are not clearcut or satisfying. You cannot thoroughly relax or thoroughly go ahead. You cannot thoroughly enjoy your solitude, or thoroughly appreciate your friends and normal social activities. You see in Ruburt’s physical condition the clearest representation, but this is simply the clearest sign of events that exist in your own private experience also. You go out into the world to do the chores, grudgingly, but you go. Ruburt goes ahead creatively, lately, grudgingly, but he goes.

You are faced of course with conditions built up of long-held attitudes. In general, however, you are tying the highest faculties of your consciousness to goals that are at least unbecoming to them, and because you have still accepted the tenets of conventionalized beliefs. You cannot serve two masters at any one time with hopes of doing justice to either, and you only confuse yourselves. It is the mixture of consciousness with which you form your events that causes the difficulty.

You have been straddling levels of consciousness, in other words, so that the events of your lives have shown gaps that we want to close. Please understand that these gaps are also the results, partially, of certain achievements—as your conflicts about taxes could not have existed years ago. That is simply a small example. When you began to expand your ideas of reality, you naturally attached them to goals that you held earlier, and tried to make them fit. Some of those goals were quite worthy, but carried beliefs along with them that were detrimental.