“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt wanted to make creativity work financially so that you could both be free to pursue it. Through the years the goals of one level of consciousness— though I am putting this simply—became tied to the goals of another level of consciousness. Overall, ideally speaking, the two could be fused. Practically, however, this is like trying to build two pieces of furniture with different materials, then forming them into one cohesive whole. In both of your lives, those experiences, however valid, that did not fit both categories, gradually went to one degree or another by the way.

You are trying to live your lives, speaking simply now, at two mutually exclusive levels, combining two lines of belief that contradict each other. As a result any one action you take does not satisfy you, for you are equally drawn to the other direction. Events then are not clearcut or satisfying. You cannot thoroughly relax or thoroughly go ahead. You cannot thoroughly enjoy your solitude, or thoroughly appreciate your friends and normal social activities. You see in Ruburt’s physical condition the clearest representation, but this is simply the clearest sign of events that exist in your own private experience also. You go out into the world to do the chores, grudgingly, but you go. Ruburt goes ahead creatively, lately, grudgingly, but he goes.

You are faced of course with conditions built up of long-held attitudes. In general, however, you are tying the highest faculties of your consciousness to goals that are at least unbecoming to them, and because you have still accepted the tenets of conventionalized beliefs. You cannot serve two masters at any one time with hopes of doing justice to either, and you only confuse yourselves. It is the mixture of consciousness with which you form your events that causes the difficulty.

You can learn to dismiss it—not as a reality to which others may not give acquiescence, but one that you realize is basically powerless. You can no longer afford to serve two masters.

(10:28.) Ruburt over-worries, now, with any new creative project: will it find readers? Is it important? Will it sell? And you smile. You worry about what the publisher will do with the book after it sells—what will happen to it, and imagine the ways in which it can be ruined. Two sides of the same coin.

(10:45.) Part two: proposals.

You must renew your sense of dedication, privately and jointly. I have some definite proposals, and I suggest that you take advantage of them. I am mainly going to suggest the use of certain techniques with which you are quite familiar. You have not used them as a way of life because of the conflicts mentioned earlier, and if you are going to get off dead center and do something instead of complaining, you must each begin to put these to practice. They worked well years ago, before you tried to wed two systems of belief to each other.

I will eventually suggest two sessions a week again. Your joint concepts of time are the only impediments at this point.

Television at your dinner hour is advantageous, as long as it is not news. Occasionally you are helped by relaxing in such a manner for several hours. Often, however, this is dead time because your worries have so tired you. Several evenings a week, therefore, I suggest that the two of you pursue a period of psychic activity, as per Ruburt’s library, though with whatever variations suggest themselves. You need not be overly earnest at such times, however. I am not concerned about our book, the latest one. I am intent, however, about a new beginning, a new dedication, so that your own purposes become clearer, and your abilities better used. Conventional ideas of the psychic world have eroded both of your attitudes. In many cases, as with Kubler-Ross, it is again an issue of high insight occurring but put at the service of conventionalized beliefs.

Then we will see some results. I will comment at our next session, then. I want the two of you to discuss this session, and begin each day with a sense of dedication. I want you to encourage each other’s strengths honestly, and not reinforce your weaknesses. You cannot change your lives by complaining, or by saying “Yes, I have certain beliefs,” and accepting them. You cannot preserve the status quo, and be creative.