“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(This morning while working on the tax questionnaire for the CPA who handles our affairs, I had cramps in my back and stomach. They came on while I was talking about money with Jane. I’d asked her recently if Seth could say something about my too frequent upsets with my stomach and side, anyhow. The deleted material on my stomach which I’d received on February 2, 1976 had already helped resolve my hassles about using old family photos in “Unknown” Reality.)

The reason for the difficulty with the muscles is so obvious that I am surprised you did not make the connections yourself. It is not the fact of the taxes so much that annoys you, as the uses of the taxes, for you resent “being forced” to contribute your money to what you think of as stupid national policies.

The nuclear power plants are connected in your mind. It seems not only as money taken from you, or from Ruburt, which annoys you more, since you think he worked so hard for it—but worst of all, the money is being spent to promote national stupidities of distorted beliefs, to which you are diametrically opposed.

In your mind you creatively envision the ideal—the sanity of some future culture that, hopefully, our work and others will bring about: if not tomorrow, some “time.” On the other hand, you face the evidence of today; almost, though not quite, it seems, the worst picture possible, the antithesis of what is desired. And it seems to you that your money is being used to prolong those conditions.

The money is being achieved or accumulated as a result of your search for the ideal, so it appears twice as ironic to you that the funds for taxes be used to pursue national goals bent, it seems, upon the most gross, shortsightedly practical conditions. This is, if you will forgive the term, beautifully and cleverly connected in your mind with “Unknown” Reality—the book. Here again you find yourself often in a dilemma of your making, between the ideal and what seems to be; if not the grossly practical, something close to it.

More than this, again, any money thus acquired in the future, as in the past, would go to promote the continuance of the very system that, left alone, would mutilate our book, and continue idiotic cultural and political policies that are opposed to what you stand for.

This applies also to the taxes, for in the back of your mind you also think of the good sane uses, the ideal in usage, to which such money could be given. The conflict causes tensions. The same applies to your feelings, until very lately, concerning your mother and the photographs. Here you had your feelings that photographs of the family would disclose a practical actuality far less than, for example, your mother’s ideal image of herself. You feared that in life she was always wounded by photographs because they showed her to be so far less than she wanted herself to be or appear.

(10:06.) Now: your money paid in taxes will go to support a system that, when all is said and done, presently, tries to support its citizens despite all its weaknesses and stupidities. It does, as Ruburt thinks often, support other poor but gifted youngsters, and poor and ungifted youngsters (with amusement). It preserves a quite necessary organization in which, overall, nationally at least, changes do occur for the better without massive disruptions.

Your money will go into ventures you approve of. Underline that sentence. It will be used to support people or ventures that in one way or another seek goals that are in line with our work. When you thoroughly understand what is meant by the entire safe universe concept, then the physical, cultural climate is understood as a medium through which the ideal can be expressed—can be expressed. The ideal is meaningless if it is not physically manifest to one degree or another. The ideal seeks expression. It seeks those channels that it instinctively knows will yield expression. In doing so it often seems to change or alter in ways that are not understood.