“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

When you let yourself go, your “natural” feelings lead you to fear that they will mutilate photographs, or in some way cheapen the book, dragging it down from the ideal. You have not really gotten it through your head that such thoughts do not represent practical reality, but impractical reality. But the main problem is the dilemma caused by the difference between the ideal and a feared, opposing actuality.

This applies also to the taxes, for in the back of your mind you also think of the good sane uses, the ideal in usage, to which such money could be given. The conflict causes tensions. The same applies to your feelings, until very lately, concerning your mother and the photographs. Here you had your feelings that photographs of the family would disclose a practical actuality far less than, for example, your mother’s ideal image of herself. You feared that in life she was always wounded by photographs because they showed her to be so far less than she wanted herself to be or appear.

(Louder for the next several paragraphs:) Your joy, your challenge, should be in the expression of the ideal as you see it, whether or not you can in your terms count upon the consequences, or the impediments—whether or not the expression comes to fulfillment in your terms—and even if it seems to fall on ground on which it will not grow.

If you have difficulties again, speak to the concerned areas gently, in a calming fashion. Tell them that you are working on the problems that have caused them stress. This will help, but the conditions now should vanish with your understanding.