“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The nuclear power plants are connected in your mind. It seems not only as money taken from you, or from Ruburt, which annoys you more, since you think he worked so hard for it—but worst of all, the money is being spent to promote national stupidities of distorted beliefs, to which you are diametrically opposed.

When you let yourself go, your “natural” feelings lead you to fear that they will mutilate photographs, or in some way cheapen the book, dragging it down from the ideal. You have not really gotten it through your head that such thoughts do not represent practical reality, but impractical reality. But the main problem is the dilemma caused by the difference between the ideal and a feared, opposing actuality.

(10:06.) Now: your money paid in taxes will go to support a system that, when all is said and done, presently, tries to support its citizens despite all its weaknesses and stupidities. It does, as Ruburt thinks often, support other poor but gifted youngsters, and poor and ungifted youngsters (with amusement). It preserves a quite necessary organization in which, overall, nationally at least, changes do occur for the better without massive disruptions.

He was indeed expressing the ideal of his life to a far greater degree than most, but in those areas, where its expression lagged, the contrast seemed so varied in your joint eyes as to make the ideal seem a lie by contrast. If others had the same attitudes toward someone in the same kind of difficulty, you would straighten them out at once.

When Ruburt as an individual sought to heal himself, and at the same time sought to divest himself of traditional methods of healing, such as doctors and so forth, he embarked upon a journey through his own beliefs—but also through the beliefs of your own culture. He is coming out on the other side. Again, your discussion about the dentist was vital to him, because he finally understood his attitudes—not only in that area but others; and in those areas, no matter what he told himself, he was afraid that the worst was really happening, or would happen.

If you have difficulties again, speak to the concerned areas gently, in a calming fashion. Tell them that you are working on the problems that have caused them stress. This will help, but the conditions now should vanish with your understanding.