“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The funeral (of my mother on November 19, 1973), family considerations, thoughts of buying a house, brought up difficulties. These were apparent also because at the same time he had begun going out more, giving in some to previously denied impulses, and putting himself in positions that he had not before. He was, in a small period of time, encountering his beliefs in reality as he knows it, therefore.

The spending splurge, and changes here, are important. Particularly important was your discussion with him the other evening. You recall the one I mean. (About Jane and me being essentially alone in that world now after my mother’s death, etc.) In the inner order of events he is walking nearly normally, but the challenge to beliefs must take place on that outer level, and this is now occurring. It is important because of his literal-mindedness.

Now: because of your background you also feel that there is something slightly shameful about going abroad in the day, when a man should be taken up with dutiful work. Your mother was ashamed of your father’s being home, for example. You used to comment to Ruburt about all the people on the streets in working hours. He picked that idea up from you. Your own list of beliefs should be quite illuminating as you continue it. But the real realizations will come as the exercises and their personal comprehension merge with what is written in my book.

Again, your lovemaking together is vital. Ruburt was correct in some assessments he made concerning your own energy. In a certain way your mother’s death releases it.