“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now, give us a moment.... Ruburt basically believed that if he did his own thing—writing—money would come to him. For a while, as given much earlier, he was worried about money, believing poverty the mark of the artist. The latter belief fell, however, and in three years the financial picture has changed vastly for the better.

You doubted that your own good work would bring any financial success at all, while you believed that commercial work would; but you do not like commercial work. Somewhat like George (Rhoads), you believed that your best work would not be appreciated. It would not sell, while “inferior” work, by contrast, would.

Ruburt is satisfied with the financial pace, knowing it is accelerating on its own. This is an example however of the way in which your private and joint beliefs operate in a given area. Ruburt does not think in terms of details. He knows the books will bring added financial success, and that ad campaigns, etc., will come. This does not mean he is not annoyed on occasion, for he is, but overall he is in that regard certain.

There is more here but it is not pertinent to tonight’s discussion. In that area however Ruburt’s positive beliefs and your supportive ones acquiesced in the area where you each were free. Now you feel that your own best writing efforts will bring you some appreciation and financial success, while you still doubt your best painting will.

(10:00.) Give us a moment.... Some long time ago your own belief that good work could not be financially relied upon put up enough of a barrier so that Ruburt became frightened about his own work (a fact I have long suspected, and recently discussed with Jane), and set up a physical situation that would force him to stay home, literally, work, and prevent him from trying any longer those other avenues that you were still adopting. (Jobs, etc.)