“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now he has felt that if the “authority,” the people, do not like what he says, then they will not buy his books, and deny him that “welfare.” At the same time he has been determined to go ahead. Instead of the people giving him handouts as a child, where he had to be careful of what he did and said, he saw them as contributing to his welfare through buying his books, and if he went too far and offended them, they would stop.

Each of you felt, however, that there was great value in being anonymous, yet you put yourselves in a position where you could not be. You tell Ruburt to keep it a secret from Leonard that your rent was raised, or you might move—good God!—while your most intimate personal beliefs and inspirations are given to the world. The idea however has been, the more secret you were, each of you, the better off you were, while at the same time your individual and joint creativity would be known. But the habits of secrecy continued, and there is no reason for secrecy but fear.

Ruburt’s New York Times ad is delightful, but he no longer needs to depend upon that kind of prestige. You are not better than other people, either of you. You certainly are not worse. You are, in your terms, in their reality while being “ahead” of them in terms of certain kinds of development. You chose this experience for a reason. You do have equal contemporaries, unknown to you, but you are working at a different level. You are not involved in a specific kind of emotional reality others are pursuing. Those realities are not beneath your own in any way. They do need people like you who are not so involved, who work in other areas, to help them.

In those terms you are “out of your time.” You have been through the same kind of encounters, however, enmeshed in them like anyone else, so you have no right to feel superior. The implied sense of superiority is what made Ruburt so angry at authorities, so defiant. They seemed to have power over him that he resented. You cannot speak to your age, your time, unless you understand it, and you cannot understand it unless at one time or another you feel the weight of its authoritative beliefs. So Ruburt grew up where they were important.

The house will be an investment, among other things. Your best investment in your times, and any improvements will add to it, that you make.

Briefly on the economy: times are changing, literally, now. The old beliefs are not paying off. You are luckily free of many limiting beliefs that could otherwise hamper you now. Beliefs that once seemed to put you at a financial disadvantage now work for you.

Encourage Ruburt to go out with you more. Each of you cop out in that regard, using time as an excuse. He will, however, feel freer, there is no doubt of it, when he does not think of the hallway as the place where the public world begins. He uses that surely in line with the beliefs given—but the private area will still help him along the way. I am not excusing the belief.