“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now, dear friend, you have also shared some of these ideas, and to some extent seen Ruburt’s physical condition as a symbolic statement of how the so-called authorities viewed our joint work. Ruburt is striking. In his physical condition he is still striking. People still notice him. They notice him even more now because of the eccentricity of walk. This bothers you. It bothers Ruburt. You do not like to be out with him, on a certain level now, because he is so noticeable, so obvious. It offends your idea of secrecy, privacy, and being anonymous. I do not mean that you are not sympathetic. You follow me.

You had each thought, however, that there was something extremely uncomfortable about the truly creative person in society, that he or she had to protect himself or herself, and the symptoms have been Ruburt’s way of protecting himself—yet also his way of saying, “I am different. Do not fear me, look at me. I am obviously flawed, so you cannot attack me.” So he feigns illness. When the opinions of others are no longer so valued, there is no need for such protection, such playing dead.

There will be some extraordinary library experiences. Because of such fears as I have spoken about this evening, many people never use their true creative abilities at all. But they do not remain “healthy” either. They suffer. Their abilities yearn for release, and overall their lives are, in your terms, incredibly dim. Ruburt can make no new bargain that says “Now I change my mind. I will be physically flexible, but I will no longer use my creative abilities in the ways natural to me.” That is simply the other side of the same limiting bargain. But that is not where he is going.

You can definitely expect better walking shortly. Your participation in class is important because it represents an opening of your secrecy. Ruburt felt you wanted him to go ahead but not go ahead in that regard. Do you follow me?

Give us a moment.... The house at Elmira Heights can suit your purposes. It has several important aspects that you should look for—the combination of privacy and openness. Do you follow me?