“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You would paint pictures, then, but not show them. You both possessed such strong creative abilities, however, that once expressed they were bound to create attention. There are many variations on the same thing that the artist, the revolutionary thinker, the genius, would be punished by his fellow men, or even be betrayed by his own abilities. Many such ideas have been held by those relatively innocent of any great creative ideas themselves, in order to rationalize their own deficiencies.

Now he has felt that if the “authority,” the people, do not like what he says, then they will not buy his books, and deny him that “welfare.” At the same time he has been determined to go ahead. Instead of the people giving him handouts as a child, where he had to be careful of what he did and said, he saw them as contributing to his welfare through buying his books, and if he went too far and offended them, they would stop.

Their ideas ruled the world. Their ideas carry the weight of mass acceptance. He has done his thing, but fearfully. Only lately has he realized that he has no respect for any of the authorities, as they call him or write him, or approach him. As with today’s psychologist, he sees that in many ways they know far less than he, and are looking to him for help and direction. These are the people, he suddenly sees, that so frightened him.

None of this ever had to do with Ruburt privately, but with Ruburt and his contact with the world. None of our sessions, or his own natural development would ever bother him. The question was how these could be related to the world, how people would interpret or misinterpret, or how he would be regarded—for he took it for granted that anyone offering revolutionary ideas would be punished or ostracized.

Until lately he idealized authority on the one hand, and was frightened of it on the other. Only when he realized that there was no authority in those terms could he begin to let down his guard.

Actually some of the responses to Personal Reality have helped him considerably, as he sees that so-called authorities are greedy for these ideas, and need them desperately. His beliefs therefore have been changing. He feels free to move, and that symbolically and literally means a new “place.” That also applies to you, and both of you jointly, which is even more important: your joint agreement.

Now, dear friend, you have also shared some of these ideas, and to some extent seen Ruburt’s physical condition as a symbolic statement of how the so-called authorities viewed our joint work. Ruburt is striking. In his physical condition he is still striking. People still notice him. They notice him even more now because of the eccentricity of walk. This bothers you. It bothers Ruburt. You do not like to be out with him, on a certain level now, because he is so noticeable, so obvious. It offends your idea of secrecy, privacy, and being anonymous. I do not mean that you are not sympathetic. You follow me.

You had each thought, however, that there was something extremely uncomfortable about the truly creative person in society, that he or she had to protect himself or herself, and the symptoms have been Ruburt’s way of protecting himself—yet also his way of saying, “I am different. Do not fear me, look at me. I am obviously flawed, so you cannot attack me.” So he feigns illness. When the opinions of others are no longer so valued, there is no need for such protection, such playing dead.

Give us a moment.... He is free to use all his abilities physically, psychically, creatively, and spiritually. One need not be expressed at the expense of another. Instead each complements the others. When you realize quite literally and practically that you have no other person or authority to fear, then you are free to be yourself to the best of our “ability.”