“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

It is difficult sometimes to untangle beliefs because you do not get hold of the proper strands.... To some degree Ruburt believed that artists and writers, pioneers, or revolutionary thinkers, were somehow punished—despised even—for their genius; ostracized. To some extent he had the feeling that as long as you kept your mouth shut about what you believed, you were safe, and that idea drew great strength from your own similar belief. Think what you want but don’t make the mistake of telling the rest of the world. Keep your mouth shut.

Now he has felt that if the “authority,” the people, do not like what he says, then they will not buy his books, and deny him that “welfare.” At the same time he has been determined to go ahead. Instead of the people giving him handouts as a child, where he had to be careful of what he did and said, he saw them as contributing to his welfare through buying his books, and if he went too far and offended them, they would stop.

Anyone who starts out to do so knows there are some risks. Such people also know however that intuitively they possess the ability to conquer any such barriers. Today’s physical development represents the beginning of the profound improvement I spoke of, simply surfacing today.

None of this ever had to do with Ruburt privately, but with Ruburt and his contact with the world. None of our sessions, or his own natural development would ever bother him. The question was how these could be related to the world, how people would interpret or misinterpret, or how he would be regarded—for he took it for granted that anyone offering revolutionary ideas would be punished or ostracized.

Now, dear friend, you have also shared some of these ideas, and to some extent seen Ruburt’s physical condition as a symbolic statement of how the so-called authorities viewed our joint work. Ruburt is striking. In his physical condition he is still striking. People still notice him. They notice him even more now because of the eccentricity of walk. This bothers you. It bothers Ruburt. You do not like to be out with him, on a certain level now, because he is so noticeable, so obvious. It offends your idea of secrecy, privacy, and being anonymous. I do not mean that you are not sympathetic. You follow me.

You had each thought, however, that there was something extremely uncomfortable about the truly creative person in society, that he or she had to protect himself or herself, and the symptoms have been Ruburt’s way of protecting himself—yet also his way of saying, “I am different. Do not fear me, look at me. I am obviously flawed, so you cannot attack me.” So he feigns illness. When the opinions of others are no longer so valued, there is no need for such protection, such playing dead.

There will be some extraordinary library experiences. Because of such fears as I have spoken about this evening, many people never use their true creative abilities at all. But they do not remain “healthy” either. They suffer. Their abilities yearn for release, and overall their lives are, in your terms, incredibly dim. Ruburt can make no new bargain that says “Now I change my mind. I will be physically flexible, but I will no longer use my creative abilities in the ways natural to me.” That is simply the other side of the same limiting bargain. But that is not where he is going.

Ruburt’s New York Times ad is delightful, but he no longer needs to depend upon that kind of prestige. You are not better than other people, either of you. You certainly are not worse. You are, in your terms, in their reality while being “ahead” of them in terms of certain kinds of development. You chose this experience for a reason. You do have equal contemporaries, unknown to you, but you are working at a different level. You are not involved in a specific kind of emotional reality others are pursuing. Those realities are not beneath your own in any way. They do need people like you who are not so involved, who work in other areas, to help them.

Ruburt need not fear becoming a new authority. People do their own thing, and point to others as authorities to take their responsibility for them. He need not fear others as authority, for the same applies. You do not need to protect yourselves against the world. It needs what help it can get, and you can only help it by being yourselves.

Further library experiences will help Ruburt. Again, do not become impatient, tell him. You choose books rather than television appearances, because of your feelings of secrecy and safety. Your house should have a foyer for the same reasons, and some definite stated area between private and public land. This will make a big difference to each of you.

You can definitely expect better walking shortly. Your participation in class is important because it represents an opening of your secrecy. Ruburt felt you wanted him to go ahead but not go ahead in that regard. Do you follow me?

Give us a moment.... Do not buy a house with a dirt cellar. Do not buy a house heated by oil. The fumes are not good. A house facing the east is good in your section of the country. Use your psychic abilities to ascertain the house’s atmosphere, by all means, and no matter how fine it seems, if you do not feel comfortable inside, do not buy it. It should have a fireplace, because of the reminders of the hearth. It should not be sided with aluminum or metal. In your area it should not face the south (but it does—May, 1975). This also has to do with the ways you use energy, so these are no general precepts for others to follow. Check with your pendulums.

Give us a moment.... The house at Elmira Heights can suit your purposes. It has several important aspects that you should look for—the combination of privacy and openness. Do you follow me?

Houses even in the country can have a closed quality if the mountains or trees press too closely. The land that you own is important, but the visible land that you do not own is also, and you should be in sight of a mountain or some open area, while still having a private “secret” area also.

Some work will be done on Ruburt’s gums this evening. I am not telling you what to do. You can safely afford $30,000, with what I know of money that will come in, and with plenty to spare. If you cannot accept that statement practically, however, then do not spend that amount.

Now however, the sooner you move the better, taking your drawings, et cetera, into consideration. I do not mean tomorrow.

You will not fall prey to the “perils of success,” as many do.