“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

There are many still waiting to be sparked, whose lives are, relatively now, unenriched by a mental and psychic environment that you two take for granted. There are those who do not even as yet “enjoy their creaturehood,” thinking it beneath them while still being unable to reach through and beyond it.

We know what he still gets out of them. You form your private and joint realities. If Ruburt knew that you were receiving no benefits, but only torment, from his symptoms, then he would give them up on the spot, because of his great loyalty to you, and because he would understand that he was hurting you beyond any benefits he gave.

You are afraid of releasing your energy into your work, for fear it will carry you beyond all ordinary relationships—simply because your father’s creativity seemed to cut him off from his wife and sons, and to lead to isolation. Creative success, not necessarily in terms of money, but creative fulfillment, becomes then a threat in which you see yourself cut off and isolated—while isolation is precisely what you think you must have to fulfill your abilities.