“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Your time will now shortly be your own. You must manage it with conscious decisions, even if you go on trial basis with different methods, working toward what suits you best. It is not the method you latch upon that is important, but that you insist upon making conscious decisions, and taking conscious control of your time. In the past you felt and believed that this was not possible, and so your attempts failed, largely because you were afraid—overly afraid —of hurting other peoples’ feelings, and somewhat afraid that your desire for solitude would cut you off too much from others.

The ligaments do their utmost, releasing spasmodically to the utmost at times in an exercising capacity, then go back to a position that is operationally practical, while representing an improvement over an earlier position. Therefore you have a period of instability. Ruburt experienced that with the sudden fast arm motion (earlier today), but his eyes were not used to moving that fast.