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Now Ruburt used his poetry also to exert independence from his mother—which implied, he thought, a certain kind of rejection of Marie. These attitudes cause you to try to maintain some solitude while believing it is almost impossible to achieve, and so this of course is your experience.

He thinks “I must be wrong. If Jane didn’t want to talk she would have said so,” for Frank is not used to trusting his own intuitions. People are not that easily hurt by honesty. Your beliefs make it very difficult for you to achieve your solitude. While you desire it and feel it necessary, you also to some extent are afraid of it, lest it cut you off too much from your fellows.

Your working men will be gone. Ruburt has gone to extraordinary lengths to cut out distractions, among other things, until he realized that he went too far.

In previous periods of improvement, Ruburt often worked nights, because he then avoided the issue—or, rather, took care of it in another manner.

This time he is improving in spite of the working men, for example. In the past several days his body has responded remarkably well, with vitally important loosening taking place. Those improvements are better than even I would have expected, even though the overall locomotion is very uneven.

Ruburt’s body is becoming more alive. You have been, in some respects, psychically as tired as he was physically. As things now stand, his body is spasmodically jolting itself into new life, and responsiveness. As it does you will psychically follow suit. Your love for each other is coming to new fruition, and that, sensed by each of you, will give you an even greater impetus, for Ruburt creatively and physically; and for you this will bring about real breakthroughs in your painting and in your writing.

Ruburt’s room is highly important for many reasons in your home, and he is moving about more naturally.

Now: further illumination: when Ruburt asks you if you are tired five times in an hour, he means, “I love you. I am sorry that you must go to such extra work during the day, on my behalf. I hope that it does not tire you out. I cannot express my sorrow that I put you to so many chores that I should be able to help you with.” But he does not express his love on such occasions—only his concern. That should sound familiar.

You each saw a program about animal motion. The action of the eyes is intimately connected with the speed and mobility of the body—intimately connected, for that matter, with all organs. Naturally, then, Ruburt’s eyes are changing. A rather usual error would be to treat the eyes through different glasses, thereby locking them into a transitory phase. You should have received enough evidence, and fine evidence thus far, to show you that there is nothing intrinsically wrong with Ruburt’s eyes, per se. As he changes his motions they will acclimate. The unevenness of vision is the result of the entire body changes, shiftings of jaw pressure, release of ligaments, and an entire body reorientation.

(Seth made his humorous remark because Willy Two, waking from his nap beside me on the couch, had climbed up in Jane’s lap while she was speaking in trance. He put his face close to hers.)

Now driving, riding, is beneficial, for it artificially allows the eyes horizons of distance, and large areas of focus. He is not moving that fast bodily, but his eyes are newly accustomed to faster motion. Earlier, the eyes’ motion fit the bodily stance. He only looked downward when he walked. When he sat, he moved his entire head. The eyes, therefore, have become unsynchronized in that regard, and are learning more natural motion. He was not aware of the difference before.

The changing jaw pressures, the releasing of tension there, altered the sinuses and the ears. Those passages had become tight. He was used to that. All of this now is changing to a healthful condition. This is difficult to explain. Before, there was a sinus drainage backup or buildup, caused by tension. I will put this as simply as possible. That buildup, caused by tension, “caused crystallizations,” or deposits, that toughened the tissues. This was more or less equally deposited in the head area, and tissues of the face.

That equalized pressure meant that he could see, hear, and smell, though in a restricted fashion. Those deposits are disappearing. The eye puffiness is a transitory stage. The eyes’ watering is a way of ridding the body of those old deposits. The ear area clears, as he knows.

I do not want to overemphasize such processes of the past, however, but only what is being done now as the healing processes continue. As things stand, I believe he is headed for some vital periods of relaxation. He should be able to copy an hour or so a day, but do not push that issue. It will follow naturally.

(11:52. “I’m waiting a minute,” Jane said, “for him to come back and say something I think he forgot”.... Then:)