“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You had conflicting feelings, then. There is still some emotional charge. People, however, will accept whatever actions you consider natural and equitable. They will accept your reasons, which can be stated clearly so that they do not feel personally rejected.

So while you complain and resent intrusion, some part of each of you is reassured. Your fellows do after all seek you out, even if the time is wrong. On the other hand, to some extent you squander the free time you have, for example, squandering your Friday evenings often—but not always. You should have a clear picture, taking some definite time out for friends, and it should be clearly understood that in your working hours you expect to be alone.

There may be times in working hours when someone comes, and you do feel like seeing them. That is all right. Most of the time, however, you are not honest. You say yes when you mean no. This only serves to reinforce your beliefs that it is impossible to maintain your privacy, and you feel then less in control of your own time.

People are reborn in themselves time and time again. There is more than one adulthood in one life. You are, all in all, using your earthly time well, shoving into it birth after birth. There are accelerations that occur, or that do not occur, by which people renew themselves. They shed old beliefs as snakes shed skins, and they literally begin new existences. You are doing this.

The ligaments do their utmost, releasing spasmodically to the utmost at times in an exercising capacity, then go back to a position that is operationally practical, while representing an improvement over an earlier position. Therefore you have a period of instability. Ruburt experienced that with the sudden fast arm motion (earlier today), but his eyes were not used to moving that fast.

I do not want to overemphasize such processes of the past, however, but only what is being done now as the healing processes continue. As things stand, I believe he is headed for some vital periods of relaxation. He should be able to copy an hour or so a day, but do not push that issue. It will follow naturally.

You could not settle for less. The same applies to Ruburt and his writing, and those are the challenges you have undertaken. By their nature they do not give you niches in which you can rest. You are creating an art that exists now, though you cannot see it, but only sense it at times.

A point: Ruburt’s condition involves a complete reorientation. The working men were a shock treatment of a kind. People often fast because it shocks the system, sometimes beneficially. Normal orientation is disrupted. Such shock treatments often jolt your belief systems. That is why they are sometimes effective. Retreats do the same thing. Often when you work, they give you a perspective. In that light, I have a suggestion only, even considering it will be beneficial, whether or not you follow it.

The suggestion is that you work three nights, and that you do this at least three nights each month. End of session. You would be surprised at the results. But at least give the matter consideration, for that alone will help.