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Give us a moment.... The tension in the head area was applied gradually over a period of time. Ruburt was not aware of it, specifically, as he began to limit, say, the range of the eyes’ motions, for that happened inconspicuously enough as the head motions were restricted. In a manner of speaking, everything was in proportion.

The picture fit together so well, in fact, that you say it was a smooth overall performance; as stated, those head tensions eventually caused all the other difficulties. The tension resulted in jaw pressures, affecting the teeth, the sinuses, and in particular the tightening of large ligaments in the neck. The nerves in those areas were not as responsive, then.

In this rhythm generally, first the right and then the left neck arteries are affected, releasing so far. The eye on the working side must readjust. Last week the eyes were relatively comfortable, for the process was continuing in lower portions of the body. This week the right neck ligaments continued a new release that affects the ears, sinus, and head pressures—and of course the eyes also.

I am not going into the reasons, again, for Ruburt’s condition. One of the primary attitudes, however, had to do with trying “to fight all battles at once” —a good many of them imaginary. He tried to escape from DISTRACTIONS—in capital letters—in a black-and-white fashion, making no distinctions at all. For a while anything that was not writing was a distraction.

The men, working here (on Jane’s back room and porch), are distracting. They are not enemies. To Ruburt they represent the world at your door, yet he is seeing other people in a truer light as a result. They are not creatures to be feared, run from. They do not have guns. The larger threat was in his mind.

In this life Ruburt knew his neighborhood as a child, and his feelings about people were not tempered by television programs showing normal families, or other ways of life. He believed that life was a life-and-death struggle, and having finally found what he wanted to do, his mode of survival, he brought out all of his artillery to protect himself while he did his thing.

In that way of thinking, the symptoms gave him the opportunity to stay home and produce, and yet also served to keep you in a line of importance, for it would be obvious that his success was also dependent upon your help—and other nefarious connections that all fit in.

In all of this he did not until recently realize, or want to realize, that he was not fully responding to his own life, or even that he was not fully functional, but “responsive” was the word. Also you tossed fears between you like a ball, so that when one was optimistic the other one was down. You do not have to be saints or prophets. Your beliefs in the power of the present, and in Ruburt’s recovery, as stated lately in these sessions, must, however, outbalance your doubts.

Your behavior last night was most helpful.