“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Those passages can become congested simply because of the increased circulation in the head area. In this process, however, the entire body is being improved rather than, say, specific areas. He knows he feels softer—both ordinary tissue and his muscles.

These processes result in definite improvement of performance, which is what you want, of course. Ruburt sits down more easily, for example. His body can raise up further while standing, though not as yet while walking. The important thing is to keep up your spirits, again, as the stages result in definite improvement of performance, for these of course then add to your confidence.

The men, working here (on Jane’s back room and porch), are distracting. They are not enemies. To Ruburt they represent the world at your door, yet he is seeing other people in a truer light as a result. They are not creatures to be feared, run from. They do not have guns. The larger threat was in his mind.

In this life Ruburt knew his neighborhood as a child, and his feelings about people were not tempered by television programs showing normal families, or other ways of life. He believed that life was a life-and-death struggle, and having finally found what he wanted to do, his mode of survival, he brought out all of his artillery to protect himself while he did his thing.

He overgeneralized, so that each smallest distraction brought out the entire array. Writing would get him the fullest use of his abilities and fulfillment, his own approval and yours, financial security, and hopefully some kind of success in terms of a reputation. You must remember what I told you of your reactions during those years—but your situation, to him, meant that he must work twice as hard, and perhaps have to make it for both of you.

In that way of thinking, the symptoms gave him the opportunity to stay home and produce, and yet also served to keep you in a line of importance, for it would be obvious that his success was also dependent upon your help—and other nefarious connections that all fit in.

In all of this he did not until recently realize, or want to realize, that he was not fully responding to his own life, or even that he was not fully functional, but “responsive” was the word. Also you tossed fears between you like a ball, so that when one was optimistic the other one was down. You do not have to be saints or prophets. Your beliefs in the power of the present, and in Ruburt’s recovery, as stated lately in these sessions, must, however, outbalance your doubts.