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The picture fit together so well, in fact, that you say it was a smooth overall performance; as stated, those head tensions eventually caused all the other difficulties. The tension resulted in jaw pressures, affecting the teeth, the sinuses, and in particular the tightening of large ligaments in the neck. The nerves in those areas were not as responsive, then.

The body’s latest efforts to heal itself, Ruburt’s strong intent to become flexible, and your own help and encouragement, have led to a situation in which all of those tensions, exerted over a long period of time, are in the process of rather speedily being released. They are bound to cause certain sensations, unfamiliar feelings, unsynchronized motions. If the process were slower, of course, you might not notice the sensations.

Just about all of the ligaments are softening, and then releasing, in a rather rhythmic pattern. The same applies to muscles. The activation awakens the nerves, so that they are more stimulated than before. Circulation is quickened, further stretching veins and arteries, so that they become more elastic. All of this adds up to a good amount of bodily commotion, I admit.

(9:56.) Give us a moment.... All of this does require a trust in the body’s strength and resources. The improvements themselves are learning processes, as Ruburt learns to trust the body, as before he did not.

Give us a moment.... All of these processes, and the increased overall bodily activity, do increase Ruburt’s temperature at times. I am not saying that he has a fever, but that there are accelerations of energy that often bring local rushes of circulation and heat. In hot humid weather, that does become noticeable. The sweating is also the result of increased bodily activity.

I am not going into the reasons, again, for Ruburt’s condition. One of the primary attitudes, however, had to do with trying “to fight all battles at once” —a good many of them imaginary. He tried to escape from DISTRACTIONS—in capital letters—in a black-and-white fashion, making no distinctions at all. For a while anything that was not writing was a distraction.

Distractions can be easily dealt with, as they occur, by making conscious decisions. They do not require all of the effort and psychological technology of a nuclear war (with humor). They do not require then the full artillery of your defenses—a great waste of your time and effort that could, of course, be devoted to your work.

In this life Ruburt knew his neighborhood as a child, and his feelings about people were not tempered by television programs showing normal families, or other ways of life. He believed that life was a life-and-death struggle, and having finally found what he wanted to do, his mode of survival, he brought out all of his artillery to protect himself while he did his thing.

In that way of thinking, the symptoms gave him the opportunity to stay home and produce, and yet also served to keep you in a line of importance, for it would be obvious that his success was also dependent upon your help—and other nefarious connections that all fit in.

In all of this he did not until recently realize, or want to realize, that he was not fully responding to his own life, or even that he was not fully functional, but “responsive” was the word. Also you tossed fears between you like a ball, so that when one was optimistic the other one was down. You do not have to be saints or prophets. Your beliefs in the power of the present, and in Ruburt’s recovery, as stated lately in these sessions, must, however, outbalance your doubts.

(11:16 PM. Jane had been quite restless last night, with all the bodily changes occurring. Once we woke up together, and I massaged various portions of her body for some little time. After that she slept fairly well until morning.