“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Even in his poetry, before our work, it always led him at certain times way beyond “himself.” He tried to hold himself down because, he felt, that the energy was so strong that allowed freedom in almost any direction, it would bring him in conflict with the mores and ways of other people.

He is literally a great receiver of energy. He attracts it and it must therefore then go through him, translated into experience outward. He is himself. He cannot turn himself off, or his abilities off. It is only when you make a differentiation, and basically an artificial one, between other natural abilities and psychic ones, that you think of his psychic activities as a conflict.

(10:22.) Greater recognition might help at a certain level, but this is not the answer. The fact that psychic books, so-called, do not give him what he thinks of as conventional literary praise is annoying but not basically pertinent.

He has been using the symptoms indeed as brakes. These brakes have been applied in what you think of as the psychic arena because that is the chosen situation. It is not physical mobility that worries him, but inner mobility. He is afraid to go ahead, feeling it not safe, yet he is damned if he will retreat, and for that matter he realizes that there is no retreat from your own knowledge and experience.

He has been afraid to use his abilities freely, and therefore set up physical conditions that remind him constantly of his body and objective physical life, for fear that he will go too far beyond it. He uses the radio often as physical noise to bring him back and serve as a guideline in altered states of consciousness.

Whenever Ruburt opens to the dream state, physically he is specifically worried about out-of-body travel. That was a challenge, and his own did not frighten him, but those of others did. His own did bring him up short momentarily, but that he could have handled.

It is then, again, the spontaneity of his own being that alternately delights and appalls him. I have said little about astrology, yet he chose to be born under that earth sign. (Taurus.) It is one, for reasons incidentally that I will give you at a later time, that brings the flowering of ability in later years, and that also provides, when strong talents are present, a conservative countering measure.

I want him to come over here (to the living room), make his coffee or whatever, be alone with himself and follow his impulses—to write or whatever, and to recall his dream experiences. You must let him know that you do trust him and his spontaneity, because before, no matter what you said, he knew that to some degree you wanted brakes applied.

The inner challenges, faced, will be nothing. He will realize his safety and ability, but the challenge cannot be put off. Before he sleeps he should remind himself of his natural gift of inner mobility, and encourage dream experience and recall. This alone provides the meeting of inner and outer, and true mobility. You must let him know that you do trust his spontaneity, for it is also your own, as you know.

Let him know also you are there. In a strange manner, not to be given this evening, your own painting mobility is involved. I am not saying that his reality is not his own, that he does not have the joy and responsibility for it, but that you also share a joint reality.

Your confidence will increase his. Let him know therefore that you do trust him to go ahead spontaneously, regardless of where that might lead, knowing it will be beneficial and creative. The recommendations I gave to him should also be followed despite, and precisely because of any physical resistance. In the beginning for example he may not want to move.

Now tell him that I will look out for him in all of his dream and/or out-of-body journeys. His creative output will be vastly improved, particularly in quality. I will have other recommendations after these are followed for a week.