“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt feels that he has a dragon by the tail. He is damned if he will let go and yet he is afraid to pull harder. You can specifically say that this has to do with what you call your psychic work, but even before “it” began he was aware of that energy of his, concerned about using it, focusing it, delighted with it, and afraid of it at the same time.

Even in his poetry, before our work, it always led him at certain times way beyond “himself.” He tried to hold himself down because, he felt, that the energy was so strong that allowed freedom in almost any direction, it would bring him in conflict with the mores and ways of other people.

He is literally a great receiver of energy. He attracts it and it must therefore then go through him, translated into experience outward. He is himself. He cannot turn himself off, or his abilities off. It is only when you make a differentiation, and basically an artificial one, between other natural abilities and psychic ones, that you think of his psychic activities as a conflict.

In whatever level of activity he focused his energy, his activities would be strong, exaggerated in terms of others by comparison. He is a great mystic. Naturally, that is, a great mystic. And that is reflected through his poetry as well as our specific work. So that expression would come through poetry also with its “psychedelic” experience, regardless of our specific sessions.

He has been using the static of physical discordance in the same way. Now many creative people unfortunately do the same thing. On an entirely different level, one of your old favorites, Peggy Lee, has severe physical difficulties that are meant actually to contain her energy and force it along certain lines only.

It does involve his own private experience, opening up to himself, freeing the flow of his energy. There are several ways this can be done. It is his freely allowed subjective experience now that results in books—mine, and Seven’s. He has set up barriers however against his own personal inner mobility. It is extremely important that he become more permissive, particularly in the dream state, and to change his attitude about dreaming, to go along with his experience and forget how he can make it understandable to others.

When he allows the experience, his creative abilities will translate it. He has been afraid of letting himself go and utilizing his energies fully, not objectively but subjectively.