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He has been using the symptoms indeed as brakes. These brakes have been applied in what you think of as the psychic arena because that is the chosen situation. It is not physical mobility that worries him, but inner mobility. He is afraid to go ahead, feeling it not safe, yet he is damned if he will retreat, and for that matter he realizes that there is no retreat from your own knowledge and experience.

Then he applied the brakes physically. The free flow of his experience goes rather easily, and incidentally, safely and exuberantly from what you think of as objective and subjective experience, and his creative gifts then make subjective knowledge objective in terms of art.

You however also expected Ruburt to put on brakes, and for some time acquiesced, as he did. You wanted what you thought of as adequate discipline maintained, and in other areas as well. The symptoms served secondary purposes afterward, and in all honesty for both of you.

(Intently:) You were not sure if you wanted to go on tours. The symptoms gave you breathing space. You each had an excuse ready-made. You were also worried about Ruburt’s spontaneity in psychic matters, and for a while quite approved of the sudden brakes. Both of you to varying extents now were willing to put up with the disadvantages involved, and still to some extent you both feel the same way.

You did not want Ruburt sick, but you did want brakes applied, and he chose the method. He chose the method for various reasons, from his experience. He had seen you drag your feet, applying brakes to a situation; and identifying with you, and not with his mother, his chose the same means.

I want him to come over here (to the living room), make his coffee or whatever, be alone with himself and follow his impulses—to write or whatever, and to recall his dream experiences. You must let him know that you do trust him and his spontaneity, because before, no matter what you said, he knew that to some degree you wanted brakes applied.