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Now it is this framework that you distrust. He interprets this to mean that you want him to be spontaneous as long as it is acceptable, as long as he blends with others, as long as he does not go too far. He is obviously in not the best physical condition, so the spotlight to you involves the illumination of weakness obviously apparent.

If you shy away from dramatic public exhibitions of emotionalism under the best circumstances, then here you are faced with a situation in which you see it thrust upon you by someone you love, and in your eyes under the poorest of circumstances. The physical conditions, the floor, the act of dancing when others are not, these circumstances are not to your liking. Beside that Ruburt, you feel, is not at his best physically speaking. The situation then is highly charged.

Ruburt feels if you love him you will make the effort, but you retreat. Other things are involved. He has had several drinks before he reaches that point of deciding to dance, or to ask you to. You project upon him the attributes of emotional extravagance that you fear in your mother. That is, what you interpreted as such. Quite simply to you it seemed not the place or the time, precisely because to Ruburt it did seem the place and the time. To him this meant that his emotional mobility could be expressed privately at home under conditions you both found acceptable, but not physically through the body. Yet both of you chose conditions that were not “proper” in those terms to begin with, and hence highlighted the situation so you could understand it. It is more difficult in a way for Ruburt without the highlighted situation, yet easier for you. The spotlight serves as an impetus for him, and as an impediment to some extent for you—so he was trying to use the spotlight as an impetus for action precisely because he doubted his abilities. Now: that is enough for this evening. My heartiest regards to you both, and a fond good evening.