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Ruburt identified with him being closed up and running scared. He was afraid of the cat, considering him wild and caged originally, as his mother had been in his interpretation, so he felt forced to help the cat (who did not have any love for him), as he felt before he had to help his mother—who would kill him if she had the chance.

The cat was aware in its terms of this. It became fat like Ruburt’s mother, but no longer threatening. It was fixed. If Ruburt’s mother had been fixed Ruburt would have had a different mother and different background, granting Ruburt had come alive.

Ruburt’s mother hated cats, particularly black ones. He, Rooney, and Ruburt passed symptoms back and forth. He was not a passive receptor however, the cat, and he even learned from his encounters with Jack Wall. Many of Ruburt’s feelings about his mother however are buried in Rooney’s grave. (Very important.) Rooney however is free of a distrust that he had carried with him, having to do with his background in that house, this time, across the way, and was grateful for those additional years you gave him.

He was also however symbolic of evil to Ruburt, and to some extent then conquered simply through the natural passage of events. With the death of Ruburt’s mother Rooney’s purpose was done as far as Ruburt was concerned; and Rooney did a final service, for through his death Ruburt faced the nature of pain and creaturehood that his mother’s life had so frightened him of.

One small postscript. Ruburt must see his existence as arising from the natural cycle of his mother’s reality and his own—two different things but connected. He did not cause his mother’s illness by his birth. Her attitudes toward Ruburt’s birth belonged to his mother, and those attitudes of his mother were far more important than Ruburt’s birth.

His mother chose a reality that seems incredibly tragic and painful from the outside looking in. In certain terms it was tragic and painful but it was not Ruburt’s fault, and within it his mother achieved a different kind of knowledge and even triumphant experience.

She also helped provide a background that Ruburt wanted and chose. Ruburt’s aunt was looking from without, and the consciousness of Ruburt’s mother left the body as Rooney’s did. There is no unbearable pain. Consciousness leaves first, though the body mechanism reacts, but without the “I” identity from which the (in quotes) “horror” comes. Do you follow me?

Ruburt’s mother was turned in different directions, and her reality existed quite apart from any daughter. The end.