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(11:47 PM.) Tell Ruburt not to waste time crying over his mistakes. Remind him of the ways he has used his body well, and help him change his beliefs about it. Any physical gain, as badminton, physical achievement, should be stressed, and the movement that he does have encouraged.

His interpretation in Dialogues of Rooney’s existence was excellent. Some ideas he has from William James (Varieties of Religious Experience), the seemingly disconnected realizations about his body, dreams and dialogues, will altogether help him.

Give us a moment. The cat would have died that winter (four years ago). In your terms it was a probable death. In a part of his reality he did die that winter. In your reality you kept him alive. He had been closed up in that house over there, and went wild and terrified.

Ruburt identified with him being closed up and running scared. He was afraid of the cat, considering him wild and caged originally, as his mother had been in his interpretation, so he felt forced to help the cat (who did not have any love for him), as he felt before he had to help his mother—who would kill him if she had the chance.

The cat was male, called originally Katherine however, and identified as female. He got in scrapes as Ruburt’s father did in bars. The cat knew of the identifications. He was willing however to trade these for several years of additional physical life, in which he also learned for the first time to relate to gentleness; even to be on terms with another cat, and Willy in his way served as a mentor.

Ruburt’s mother hated cats, particularly black ones. He, Rooney, and Ruburt passed symptoms back and forth. He was not a passive receptor however, the cat, and he even learned from his encounters with Jack Wall. Many of Ruburt’s feelings about his mother however are buried in Rooney’s grave. (Very important.) Rooney however is free of a distrust that he had carried with him, having to do with his background in that house, this time, across the way, and was grateful for those additional years you gave him.

He was also however symbolic of evil to Ruburt, and to some extent then conquered simply through the natural passage of events. With the death of Ruburt’s mother Rooney’s purpose was done as far as Ruburt was concerned; and Rooney did a final service, for through his death Ruburt faced the nature of pain and creaturehood that his mother’s life had so frightened him of.

One small postscript. Ruburt must see his existence as arising from the natural cycle of his mother’s reality and his own—two different things but connected. He did not cause his mother’s illness by his birth. Her attitudes toward Ruburt’s birth belonged to his mother, and those attitudes of his mother were far more important than Ruburt’s birth.

His mother chose a reality that seems incredibly tragic and painful from the outside looking in. In certain terms it was tragic and painful but it was not Ruburt’s fault, and within it his mother achieved a different kind of knowledge and even triumphant experience.