“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

There are a series of beliefs, built up like blocks one upon the other, that of course form his experience. Now some of these are excellent. The ones that are less advantageous were used as methods of bringing about desired good ends—i.e., they were used in the service of “good beliefs.” It is important that this be understood.

He had for example a strong positive belief in his own abilities, energy and power. He believed he could not only develop his abilities and bring them to fruition, but also help others.

He also had a belief, quite contradictory, in the unworthiness, now, of his being. This was accepted originally in this life, but also for other reasons from the past, from his mother.

The idea of money also had conflicting connotations. His father had money and was useless—according to early beliefs received from his mother. The father was also, with money now, sexually promiscuous, according to those beliefs.

To use his abilities freely and fully might therefore mean success, money, and sexual license. Your own ideas about money and success of course influenced his beliefs: your combined ideas now of virtuousness and thrift, as opposed to license. Ruburt therefore put himself in a position—as he knows, now—where he focused most of his spontaneity and attention on his work to insure its fulfillment, while cutting out all other distractions and possibilities of misuse or license.

So in their way the beliefs served each other. They began to change balance finally. His mother’s death, the fact that you left your job, and his own growing understanding released him first in financial terms, because of an always latent knowledge and belief in the reality of abundance—his father did have abundance even while Ruburt believed in poverty as a child.

It was never, except for the time mentioned, the writing self that Ruburt distrusted, but he feared for the worthiness of his being. The writing self was obviously a part of his being, and so justified it.

He still believes that he must hold himself in reins, because he will (in quotes) “run wild.” This is the basic belief that is causing the physical condition. At times it does become invisible to him, so a part of experience that he does not consciously realize it as an idea about his reality, and not a statement of truth regarding his nature.

You see, he was afraid that he moved too fast for his own good, that to move too fast was irresponsible. He must understand that the basic belief mentioned is a faulty belief, projected upon reality, and not a picture of it. That is one belief that he has not been able to separate himself from.

He has used it therefore as a counterpoint that he does not need. The belief was generated in his childhood, but it was always the underside of the opposite belief in his abilities. If he had not trusted his abilities so much in his particular way, he could not have felt the other freely-spontaneous portions so threatening. Do you follow me?

Now. He trusts our work far more than he did, and this is to our advantage. He is also beginning to trust himself, as a person. The financial accomplishments add to his person-respect. He sees, for example, that he is also liked as a person who has certain abilities, and this is beginning to alter his beliefs about himself.

The invisibility of the belief however made it difficult for him to deal with it. His conscious resolution is activated, and this is very important. Now do you have any questions?

No more than I implied in the remarks I gave you. I want to leave you some surprises; and I repeat that Ruburt intends to enjoy his hard-earned success. And you can count upon that.

You have been invaluable to him, particularly of late, and I ask you to consider your own beliefs about his complete recovery. You react to each other’s beliefs. And now, a fond good evening.