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He had for example a strong positive belief in his own abilities, energy and power. He believed he could not only develop his abilities and bring them to fruition, but also help others.

He also had a belief, quite contradictory, in the unworthiness, now, of his being. This was accepted originally in this life, but also for other reasons from the past, from his mother.

The ideas obviously conflicted, and each collected subsidiary beliefs. He could go ahead but he must go slowly, with caution and safeguards to make sure the abilities were (underlined) fulfilled, not misused, because he did not trust himself.

To use his abilities freely and fully might therefore mean success, money, and sexual license. Your own ideas about money and success of course influenced his beliefs: your combined ideas now of virtuousness and thrift, as opposed to license. Ruburt therefore put himself in a position—as he knows, now—where he focused most of his spontaneity and attention on his work to insure its fulfillment, while cutting out all other distractions and possibilities of misuse or license.

That, plus the need for money when you left Artistic, and the release from the fear, the belief, that welfare would take what he made. The blocks to the positive belief disappeared, and the belief reversed itself, and quickly. Do you follow me?

For a while there was a severe crisis, which passed, when he had difficulty writing, even, and we have discussed this, the conflict of images. When that was resolved the creative breakthrough was possible, and the resulting financial gains.

It was never, except for the time mentioned, the writing self that Ruburt distrusted, but he feared for the worthiness of his being. The writing self was obviously a part of his being, and so justified it.

He still believes that he must hold himself in reins, because he will (in quotes) “run wild.” This is the basic belief that is causing the physical condition. At times it does become invisible to him, so a part of experience that he does not consciously realize it as an idea about his reality, and not a statement of truth regarding his nature.

This is important, for to a large extent he has not realized it.

When he thinks he is consciously giving himself good advice, he if often speaking to himself with the voice of the usually unconscious belief. Some quotes for him to recognize in the future:

You see, he was afraid that he moved too fast for his own good, that to move too fast was irresponsible. He must understand that the basic belief mentioned is a faulty belief, projected upon reality, and not a picture of it. That is one belief that he has not been able to separate himself from.

He has used it therefore as a counterpoint that he does not need. The belief was generated in his childhood, but it was always the underside of the opposite belief in his abilities. If he had not trusted his abilities so much in his particular way, he could not have felt the other freely-spontaneous portions so threatening. Do you follow me?

Now. He trusts our work far more than he did, and this is to our advantage. He is also beginning to trust himself, as a person. The financial accomplishments add to his person-respect. He sees, for example, that he is also liked as a person who has certain abilities, and this is beginning to alter his beliefs about himself.

It is in black and white, and can be dealt with. He is already benefiting, and has since our August session, but the final separation of the belief from the self is important. (Louder:) The prognosis is good, however. Do you have any questions?