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He had for example a strong positive belief in his own abilities, energy and power. He believed he could not only develop his abilities and bring them to fruition, but also help others.

He also had a belief, quite contradictory, in the unworthiness, now, of his being. This was accepted originally in this life, but also for other reasons from the past, from his mother.

The ideas obviously conflicted, and each collected subsidiary beliefs. He could go ahead but he must go slowly, with caution and safeguards to make sure the abilities were (underlined) fulfilled, not misused, because he did not trust himself.

(11:20.) It is this that still keeps physical reins upon the body. The belief that the self must be kept in reins—a trust in the spontaneous self directed toward work, but a distrust of the spontaneous self when it is not so directed.

It was never, except for the time mentioned, the writing self that Ruburt distrusted, but he feared for the worthiness of his being. The writing self was obviously a part of his being, and so justified it.

He has used it therefore as a counterpoint that he does not need. The belief was generated in his childhood, but it was always the underside of the opposite belief in his abilities. If he had not trusted his abilities so much in his particular way, he could not have felt the other freely-spontaneous portions so threatening. Do you follow me?

It is in black and white, and can be dealt with. He is already benefiting, and has since our August session, but the final separation of the belief from the self is important. (Louder:) The prognosis is good, however. Do you have any questions?