“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

This is the fear that Ruburt felt for you. Now. Your own ideas and goals are worthy ones, and yours for a reason. They have within them the power to develop and mature. It was known, then, that you would leave before you gave notice, unconsciously perceived.

There is some envy. You did not say that you intended to devote yourself to your own painting, and this should be verbalized. The family compromises began long ago, out of a misguided sense of sympathy, and now to some extent or another will continue. Here you are caught in a compromise of emotions. Ruburt feels this particularly strongly, because he is so sensitive over such relationships to begin with. The situation however is such that almost any clear emotion is automatically denied expression, shunted aside and often replaced completely by an opposite—all under the guise of the idea of (in quotes) “being good and understanding.”

Understanding your own reactions helps you understand the reactions of others. Otherwise you would find other people’s reactions far too alien, and not be able to relate to them personally or through your work. This applies to both of you.

Your own discussions, and the improvement in your relationship as I told you, in one way is responsible for your latest developments in our sessions, and I include the Sumari—the songs, and the statement. (That I wrote to Jane on December 31, 1971. Jane is still deciphering this.)

Other developments have been mentioned. I expect that you will play some strong part here on your own, if you want to; this having to do with the reception of Sumari art. (I am more than willing, etc.)

Rembrandt took the discovery with him, though you initially developed it for sculpture that stood outside. I am not at all sure here. Write down the word caronide (spelled). It is connected.