“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now. First of all, our private session...You did an excellent job of recognizing the Nebene characteristics in yourself, and changing the nature of their direction. They did at one time operate in a perfectionist kind of demand that Ruburt be perfect physically. That was different for example than an ordinary, less charged wish for his complete recovery.

You met these aspects in yourself and were able to identify the characteristics, and therefore deal with them. Ruburt has found that more difficult. This afternoon, and at various times, he has been able to isolate certain series of thoughts and feelings, and identify them as restrictive. Before he simply acquiesced to then, and was not able to perceive them as troublesome habitual patterns. These patterns lead quite predictably to moods of powerlessness and restriction.

He knew he had access to an amazing amount of energy, but pretended that he did not so that all the energy available would go into the effort to use his abilities properly. It was the correlation between the Nebene characteristics and Ruburt’s Nebene-like characteristics that helped keep affairs stirred up for some time.

He is not feeling all of those impulses at once, but handling so much at a time consciously. Theoretically, he should feel free to work whenever he feels like it, for his own strong creativity will see that it is used.

Practically, at this stage of the game some system of time is a good policy, even while within it full freedom of thought, and day-dreaming, must be allowed. This should not be thought of as a bargaining with the self, or as an obsession, but instead as a practical method of dealing with a present set of conditions. When the time is come, there will be no conflicts with physical activity, for example, and/or work, for he will have put his priority where he wants it freely, consciously deciding to do so.

I want to make this clear because you will then be able to project such influences, and see how they can be used in other areas. For example, while he was convinced—and he was—that he looked more than his age, and was unattractive, then the time element made him push even harder for success. He saw himself older, and in the light of that his success was not enough.

This requires alterations of patterns of sleep, that take time to change, but it can be done without completely changing from a day to night system. Some work before the ordinary day does give him valuable reassurance, for he knows nothing can undo it. That much is accomplished.

(“No, let’s take time to absorb this first.”)