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Now. First of all, our private session...You did an excellent job of recognizing the Nebene characteristics in yourself, and changing the nature of their direction. They did at one time operate in a perfectionist kind of demand that Ruburt be perfect physically. That was different for example than an ordinary, less charged wish for his complete recovery.

In this life the early background meant that Ruburt’s writing was done in the face of great distractions. He learned to turn them off. Now give us a moment.... (9:55). It is important that when he recognizes such patterns now, as he is beginning to, that he communicate them to you (as Jane did after supper tonight), until he gets used to handling them alone. He trusts your common sense, and such a measure will insure that the habitual mood reactions are cut short.

They were noticeable today precisely because he had enough peace of mind in the last few days so that comparisons could be made. I will give you more about the origin of these characteristics. For now I simply want Ruburt to learn to recognize them. They rose in this life at least in response to events that do not now exist. The possibility of his not using his creativity in this world no longer exists. The characteristics were meant to insure that he use his ability. Then, left alone, they would fall away. They have lasted because their nature was not understood, and Ruburt habitually kept them in consciousness.

(10:10.) Now, some other strings.

You can help by encouraging him to remember that his body does have the capacity to do better now. He is beginning to realize it, but that should be reinforced in the suggestions given. I do recommend both morning and evening suggestions with the pendulum.

Your motorcycle suggestions on their own are worth a barrel of gold, for the change in image it infers, and for other reasons. When he begins to rouse, he comes of course into direct confrontation with impulses before hidden. He knows he wants to move furniture, to change the environment. Now some feelings because they have been inhibited, come out in exaggerated form—the hatred of the bathroom or the bedroom for example.

In that stage then, when he tackles a room for example, the fear that he will not be able to work, or want to, becomes conscious, with guilty feelings. Now this is to the good. Often a simple discussion with you of any such episode will clear the issue for him, where before in his secrecy he would hide it even from himself.

Such issues must be dealt with consciously now, and state your willingness to help. He can take walks. Tell him not to specify that he must walk a block or not go out at all.

In Ruburt’s particular case, now, one set of beliefs led to a corollary set of physical beliefs about his body

The two sets collaborated each other quite automatically. Any lessening of beliefs in either area would be reflected in the other. Both sets have to be dealt with, therefore. Now you have other sets of quite positive beliefs also working for you, and luckily these will often help shake a harmful belief off balance. Ruburt’s books are doing well. Financially he is doing well. Both of these areas help work against the sense of powerlessness that was tied up in the troublesome beliefs.

If a series of troublesome beliefs become so strong however, then the positive sets become less effective. In Ruburt’s case however success in work does mitigate against the negative beliefs. In the past the balance of success versus failure in his eyes was so tipped at the failure end that he took but a mere breather of relief, then plunged ahead again with the same desperation. Hence, beginning each new book, he tightened his controls. Hardly any of what you both have learned, was conscious then, however. The same should not occur, now.

While he was hiding much of this was relatively impossible. Now you are also being encouraged to develop your own spontaneity with Ruburt, in a cause in which you believe heartily. As mentioned, coming over here (Apartment 5) meant that he was finally willing to confront his feelings about your relationship. The other apartment now, then, represents isolation, where when he was running away it represented independence.

Working late at night, or rising in the middle of the night, still offers advantages in that there are no conflicts in terms of household chores, or even impulses. There is some conflict there now that did not exist earlier however, because he is afraid that means he is hiding from you again.

His physical condition had been so poor however that rising alone, he had that mood in any case to face. The anticipation of surprising you did help him conquer it to some degree. An alternate suggestion is for each of you to rise very early, well before the normal working day. While you are typing this would be workable. I am offering suggestions here, but overall I recommend that Ruburt maintain so many hours, and feel free after that to indulge in those impulses that he will now be more and more aware of.

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