“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now. First of all, our private session...You did an excellent job of recognizing the Nebene characteristics in yourself, and changing the nature of their direction. They did at one time operate in a perfectionist kind of demand that Ruburt be perfect physically. That was different for example than an ordinary, less charged wish for his complete recovery.

We have not discussed the hidden Nebene-like characteristics of Ruburt’s personality. They are, as Nebene’s were, the result of a comparatively narrow, rigid focus, conscientiously embarked upon, and carried the same kind of restrictive “holy cause” charge.

They were meant to regulate creativity, as Nebene’s characteristics were. In Ruburt’s case that portion of the personality was to be a caretaker. These characteristics were also brought to activity in response to your own Nebene tendencies. The restrictions were thought to be ways of protecting creativity and ability.

You met these aspects in yourself and were able to identify the characteristics, and therefore deal with them. Ruburt has found that more difficult. This afternoon, and at various times, he has been able to isolate certain series of thoughts and feelings, and identify them as restrictive. Before he simply acquiesced to then, and was not able to perceive them as troublesome habitual patterns. These patterns lead quite predictably to moods of powerlessness and restriction.

They were noticeable today precisely because he had enough peace of mind in the last few days so that comparisons could be made. I will give you more about the origin of these characteristics. For now I simply want Ruburt to learn to recognize them. They rose in this life at least in response to events that do not now exist. The possibility of his not using his creativity in this world no longer exists. The characteristics were meant to insure that he use his ability. Then, left alone, they would fall away. They have lasted because their nature was not understood, and Ruburt habitually kept them in consciousness.

He knew he had access to an amazing amount of energy, but pretended that he did not so that all the energy available would go into the effort to use his abilities properly. It was the correlation between the Nebene characteristics and Ruburt’s Nebene-like characteristics that helped keep affairs stirred up for some time.

Each of you trusted the same kind of characteristics in the other, to keep you where you thought you should be. In this life Ruburt saw those same characteristics in Father Ryan, where repression was used to keep him in the church. These characteristics were necessary in the situation as given, until Ruburt learned the nature of the self, and could begin to trust it. With the belief that he can trust the self, the creative self, the other characteristics become unnecessary, for you cannot force creativity.