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Ruburt’s (very relaxed) condition today was the result of Friday’s news (about the very good sales of all of Jane’s books), and the body was ridding itself of a tension. Ruburt is aware that those purposes served by his physical condition are quickly vanishing. That is, he took on the symptoms because he believed that physical restraint was the best way to insure his concentration. I do not want to duplicate material given. For creative, financial and other present reasons, however, he felt that stern disciplinary measures had to be taken.

He took these for himself, and also in his own way for you, feeling that when he began to “make it” you would also be freer to do your thing.

He believes now that he is in a pretty fair position, one he can happily accept creatively and financially. He has also learned along the way. It was not really great wealth, but some acceptable framework of financial security he was after, and some assurance that his books would bring him this, along with the freedom of creativity as he understood it.

Now on his part it was precisely that conflict that got him into difficulty, and that brought about the ideas of “work.” He became angry, and still is, when you show normal criticism of Prentice and their dealings with our books, or his, because he feels that you do not really understand how difficult it is to market creative work, and since you do not sell your paintings you should not criticize his admittedly worrisome efforts. The fact that some of your criticisms are justified makes him worry the more, that he is not doing as good a job as he should.

He will not brook interference from anyone, including Richard Bach, in terms of dealing directly with the publisher of his own works. Your part in Personal Reality has been important, however, and the notes particularly, as they contribute. He wanted you both to be in a position where you could hold your heads up creatively and financially.

He had healthy enough body concepts that had to be minimized to give him the symptoms, and this was done by reactivating beliefs he had “grown out of” before his symptoms. His mother gave him the idea that he was not graceful, for example, and this idea was reactivated. He was not allowed to take physical education because he was “not strong enough, and too high strung” when he was in high school. He was told not to run, but walk, to slow down because it was too dangerous to go fast, because he was too nervous. Now those beliefs, which he had dispensed with, were reactivated as aids, and they are the ones that now must be tackled.

He must trust the physician within. Concentration should not be on “work,” but on aspects, poetry, his ideas. He is learning indeed the use of a different kind of inspirational time, which conflicts with his old ideas of so many hours.

While he is adjusting to this, let him take 3 hours a day, including Saturday, in which he is to be creatively free. He will do more “work” then than in 6 determined hours. Each day now, I want him to take his walk, even if it is only around the house. The corner is fine, but around the house is better than none; and to sit down for bowel movements.

He lost confidence in the body as a result of his course, and lost trust in his conscious mind as it directs the body. My book will help him.

Now these are my week’s suggestions, and I want, beside what I have just given you, a ten-minute badminton session daily, or pounding of the pillow for a lesser time—but one or the other. He must be encouraged to use the body, for he will see it respond, and the feedback is highly important for his confidence.

To some extent he still projects his illness into the future. Any help you can be results in reinforcing his attractiveness, and your belief in his ability to improve physically. I will have other precise suggestions. They are geared to his progress, and later a change of environment will be important simply because of the break-up of conditioning.

He wants to recover now. You must help him realize that he can. If at all possible go to an establishment at least once a week, where dancing is a possibility. If not, any kind of public endeavor is important. He can expect more relaxation periods now, so have him go along with them, and watch his moods then.

Give us a moment.... “Slow down because you are going too fast,” (was) told him in his youth; he reactivated those ideas, interpreting them to mean that he must slow down in order to produce mature work. Naturally, left alone, his body and his mind both work fast, and there is nothing dangerous in that. He had been told he would burn himself out, so he came into his late 30’s and tried to slow down. This has been covered in past sessions—many of them. He can trust himself and his own rhythms however.

The vitamins do help combat the stress he places upon the body, but only while he works with these sessions and his beliefs. Your ages were involved, in that he felt you had only so much time. Remind him that the ideas he reactivated about the body may have had some application to a child, but none to a woman.

He has been using his will to put his body down. He must realize—and he does not yet—that the will can be just as effective in releasing his body. In reminding him of this you can also be of help, for he was afraid that his will was powerless in that regard.

Ruburt’s condition will improve. That is already established, but there is a great difference between improvement and the relatively complete physical freedom he can have, that will come as he realizes his conscious control over his body’s condition.